:: P r e t t y U g l y P a r c e l ::

2012-01-01T10:10:00.002+08:00

hi world of digital, its new year and im so psyched and i just realized that blogging by phone restrict me for some numbers and symbols. it sucks...i shud be having exclamation marks here..alright not much i can say but this break that i have for five days gonna be a real awesome cuz m gonna put aside all the bloody things that affect my life. so rise and shine..its cool sunday..

One Direction Fever

2011-12-19T12:54:00.000+08:00

It’s not even two weeks left before New Year. I’m getting psyched because I’ll be flying off to Miri and having a blast New Year’s Eve with my girls. After all we have an event coming up before the fireworks can fill the air or fresh coming year. Christmas just 5 days ahead and of course I’ve been busy running here and there getting things done. Just so you know I haven’t gotten time to buy gift for everyone (think I have few in my mind). Next coming Saturday will be shopping time  I always wanted to have a new dress for New Year since the old one bores me already. I know I’m turning into some sort of Shopaholic but apparently I’m quite impressive with my financial plan, I can remain at least a few hundreds in account after the month is over (keep it up I said). Not much to be told for things that happen around me, just doing okay. However, I’m not that sure whether it was real okay or I’m just avoiding being not okay. How pathetic for not knowing self-current update. I just know that for these couple of weeks I am getting really obsessed with One Direction  I just think I need to have a new hobby rather than hooking up with something uncertain. I never been so fanatic with a boy band until I met this 5 adorable kids from UK. Round applause Niall, Harry, Zayn, Liam & Louis the best boy band ever. Lemme just list down my favorite track in their album “Up All Night”

1. Na Na Na

2. What Makes You Beautiful

3. Gotta Be You

4. One Thing

5. I wish

6. I want

7. Everything About You

8. Another World

9. Up All Night

10. More Than This

Try out people I’m sure you’ll fallin luv with the songs!!!! 

Until next time

Crazy Folks

2011-11-29T13:32:00.001+08:00

Just realize that in this world we have to beware, don't ever trust your own shadow. ROFL epic isn't it. Here's thing, I came across something dat pinch me really bad. It will leave bruises somehow and I just think its the most ridiculous things ever. I need a break really, from all of those people who bounded themselves with jealousy and envious objective. I thought married people are wise enough to be in adulthood. Scary when you know they have new habits called, spreading rumors and talking mean. I dun even know what was that for. Seems like they've got too little in their hand that they start to look for a business in other people. How cheap was that. The main issue today is "hiring". Think I'm lucky enough to work where am I now and please I'm not getting help from any of my relatives for being what I am today. They deserve respects so I gave them but what I can assure what I got from them on my side were creepy bad alphabets. I'm am pleased to see them showing their true color even though I've seen it for YEARS. Just pray to god one day they'll change but appraently NOT.

I just need to clarify certain thing in our hiring /recruitment process. We never do favoritism or even gender discrimination. Please bare in mind that office attire is something decent but not SEXY. I never know that our national outfit (Baju Kurung) categorized under "little piece of fabric". I really got no time to teach people who don't wanna learn to create peace and always hunger for war. When I'm being sexy I'll show them so that their eyeball will fall off one by one. I have no idea how these shortminded people get their aspiration. Probably through their moronic folks. They may laugh now but I can laugh louder. Like cmon, I dont even care what shirts they're wearing, cars dat they drove or even how much cash that theyearn. When it come to me everything matter like I'm so IMPORTANT (uuuu...awesome). Even a dumb ass can differentiate how being good and how is real good. I don't think preaches were enough to make themselves to be called saints. Trust me, they're even worst than a criminal. I am pissed with you people for telling me sick grandmother story and affecting everybody. I'm delighted to dare you to confront me face to face. Behind curtain is so not my style. I'm happy to give rebuttals. The first and last thing that I know is they don't give me a penny to make a life. They have to pay for whatever they have said. Crazy folks!

Boys Prefer Silence?

2011-11-23T13:42:00.001+08:00

I just have 5 minutes starting from now! LOL,,actually I was browsing the web yesterday and i came across a blog saying bout "Why boys prefer silence". I found that the topic kindda paused me on my sit. I have to agree when they said its not that silence always directing towards negative thing. Perhaps in some part it can be yes. I just think that human are all creative creation of God. We have trillions and zillions personality in this world. Despite of segregating two gender , people tend to see things generally. (pardon me if you dont judge people based on general traits). When we're talking bout boys, i just think they are build up with no to call stony but high sense of self regard. It is rather common in them because they were traditionally a bread-winner. I noe sometimes it can be very exasperatin' dealing with people with too much self-regard. Toward certain large extent these people need to learn to be a lil bit more sensitive of teir sorrounding. I really don't blame them cuz it has been something that embedded in them eversince jurassic day I guess. Above of all, what I think we can do is, show some respect if they prefer silence. Sometimes its their sober moment or anything. Just let them be, and I'm not freaking out if the guy that I love not to be like what I wanted them to be. Afterall, I can't expect them to do things beyond their will knowing that they also bare certain things bout me. Just a note to everyone, think about what you have, what have you done and think how people bare with you. If you see things start to be unequal then maybe you cn make your move. Just an opinion for me, we can never change the world to be flat just be in it and mk use of every moment we have. Same goes with your love one. I only have one Chucky the blur, the annoying, the cheerful , he's too far to be reach but I learn to learn certain things. :)

Appreciation Dinner

2011-11-21T13:45:00.001+08:00

Appreciation Dinner @ G-Tower Rooftop Bar & Tanzini French Restaurant :)

Awesome foods & cool scene!.................................

The committe snap2 with our CEO, Dep CEO, HR Director, Finance Director, Senior Managers and Execs

A Night In Bolly..ROFL

2011-11-21T13:35:00.001+08:00

ROFL, anyway, here 2 photos for my company Gala Dinner. Crazy Bollywood Night I can say.

I'm too embarassed to do this !!!Seriously I will never do this Bolly thingy ever again. Next time I suggest stick to Musical. I can simply wear dress and behaving decent :)

Today Was A Fairytale

2011-10-25T13:27:00.000+08:00

Greetings ! I know writing is now landed as my least thing to do. Despite of having micro time in life spent for my own self I'm no longer a person who can run here and there picking up fun. The phase of adulthood bites my tickling clock badly that I can't even consume a jazzed songwords anymore. So on 20th October I took a flight back to Kuching and even a day before my soul partially arrived at my lovely town. I really miss the place damn much. Too much memories and too much things that I've learnt. I met my girls :) who happened to gather earlier than me. It was all about excitement. Couldnt believe my student life is over yeah its really over. Sad to think about it but we only have life once so I'm gonna use it to the fullest. Great luck I sent off all my fella friends. We did so much great things back there and I knew it will never dimn in my lil frontal lobe. However, we've got more blank paper ahead!!

Having your both feet standing on that stage holding scroll, surely burst your tears, whether its the unseen cry or physical, it surely happen deep down in our heart. It wasn't glorious but there was a sense of satisfaction. "I did it"..I'm just glad I'm there and letting my parents seeing me with tears of mirth. :)

I'm now an HR executive, not a surgeon, pharmacist, lawyer or engineer. I knew I skidded away from my real dream but being HR make me feel comfortable. Though I'm a workoholic (i know) but I know this is something that I wanna do. Cheers everyone, happy graduating !

Challenged for challenge

2011-10-11T13:56:00.000+08:00

I heard that if a cobbler try to teach a pumbler how to fix broken pipes, they gonna have the entire house flooded with water. Anywhere around the world it happened! A scientist teaching how to fish, a taylor fixing a broken knee..Initially I'm glad to help but when people challenge my core, (shaking head) its seriously disastrous. How do you define a people where his/her knowledge is nowhere to be challenged and we give them a chunky respect. I was stupid enough if I were to challenge them (like I have too much time for it..pfffftt). As usual I really hate when ppl challenge me..Compared to her probably she has 1% knowledge bout Kuching. Whats makin' me furious was that, she said she need to understand Kuching. I get it, go on..I did asked which angle she's lookin' into. (I thought I could have some direction)..Should I laugh hard or rolling on the floor like hell?? She didn't give me direction but she expect she can get what she wants. Madam, be clear on your direction, how do you direct with somekind of direction. (Lame)...I can spill anything I know but wouldn't it be nice if I know what am I suppose to say (as in filtered information). I cannot teach someone whose already ahead. I was taught to respect people with their expertise. (So I did)...

Too much Question

2011-10-04T09:16:00.003+08:00

Sometimes when we think too much our head gonna blow with scattered alphabet. Skipping thing isn't a good thing either though it can make you away from it just a second. How does it happened, when you grow up very well but eventually something came out of nowhere screwing your planned change. How does it happened, when you're trying play safe suddenly things went out of control and all your childhood seemed fake. Sometimes people are too keen to perfection but a lil perfection doesn't bite do they? These are the perfect nightmares in some people's life. Technically its awful but it teach you the definition of being stronger. Shallow life doesn't give you scars but when deep life give you too much? (does idiom makes things worst?) However, no matter how much scar life had given you, it always gonna be a karma in your life. Have you ever been in a state of waking up jazzed with consternation? or you can't even sleep because you've been thinking deep and your head hurts. What does family means to you? Why does an angel turn to be a black sheep? How is that , when you noe everything but you have no voice to speak out? Do we really have to trust our relatives? How do you know when people sincere to you? Does dissapointment giving you an alarm?Too much question too lil answer.

British Pound Salary

2011-09-06T17:24:00.002+08:00

Happy Eid Mubarak specially for all Muslim & also non muslim that enjoy the joyous celebration. This year it appear to me not-so-awesome festive. Perhaps when you grow up you'll lose the fun bit by bit (not to mention being a zombie deserted on swine-land) Some says do not whine when life gives you a big fat lemon. Afterall the urge to scribble something in your brain is unstoppable. I bet we are all created with tiny space of natural temparament of whining in cerebral cortex. I was really trying to have fun. Despite of partially eligible for Eid token nothing awesome hoverin' around. Its juz crime thoughts keep on troubling me with clashing decipher. At the end of the day, I just sat on the edge of my bed having blur visions & ransom voices killing my auditory. Perhaps I should start oblige myself with wisdom thingy. I always find it difficult to laugh now than couple of month ago. Seriously, the course of getting excitement had been a bad add math formula (which I regard as extremely head-achin'). Realizing that I left my fantastic happiness back in my school life, it turn up to be perpelexing adulthood life. That's really true about grown up wish on "resistant to ascending age". Lord, I'm having the same wish too. Sometime you just wish you're just a kid while a kid who do not know anything about trouble. I just wanna be a kid that so innocent bout this life and never gonna care how complicated life can turn up to be. Its quite emotional ryte (laughing at myself). Now the most used vacab is "tedious" and my objective of life had been concealed by the greed of being a corporate lady, specifically a supreme HR director with British Pound salary. Its quite exageratting but I can promise all, I'll be the most tedious person ever as I start indulging myself with tactical and strategic views. I learn to develop my own principal & believes. I would like to change the old fashion way of being the top people. I will..

Damn Cell Phone

2011-08-11T10:44:00.002+08:00

To begin with, it was really a fucked up day..these few days i have unpleasant feeling bout more than dozen stuff in my head. I'm ahead of my own decipher, sometimes you don't wish it to happen but it did happen somehow. So everyday is like a deja vu. Anyway, life is pretty messed up with work. Yesterday was the worst day ever, proving that I'm ahead than my thought. I left my cell in d office so I only have my another cell which acted up at eleventh hour. There goes my stupid Samsung phone, frm LRT station all the way home d phone wasn't working. It showed "searching" on the screen. Couldn't make any calls nor send text messeges. I'm pretty pissed with d idiotic signal detection. I mean, I'm in KL afterall not somewhere in the middle of jungle. So, I smashed the phone and officially couldn't be used anymore (burghhh stupid cellphone). That wasn't the end of the story, because I only have 10 cent to make a call using public phone. It was sooooooooooooooo embarassing and shucks I didn't know how to use those lined up phone booth..(damn). Life is not fun anymore,wish I cud just fly away to Mauritious and stay ther like forever!

Ramadhan Day 1,2,3,4...

2011-08-05T13:58:00.003+08:00

I've just deleted a post (accidentally) so I have to re-write again. Happy Ramadhan to all Muslims all over the world. Basically my first day of Ramadhan I spent throughly in the office trying to be an HR (seriously). It was a pain in the ass for the first day fasting and some people doing me frenzy. The best thing to describe my "parcel issue". Man that was really iritating, not to mention I held my breathe for 2 minutes and being laughed by crazy bitches and trolls a really big fat trolls. Perhaps they don't do decent thing (shame). The cooling period wasn't that easy for me. Yeah, practically I just bite my tongue..cont biting it until I feel like the damn sun burning my skin and there's a bacterium eating my brain cells. There it goes, I spent my 5 minutes walk to LRT station throwing my veng with bad vocabs (knowing me..hmm). I was being radical for the entire evening just because of a stupid singular-plural thingy. When I think about it again and again..that was me being lame over simple stupidity. (not to mention d part...screw them get hit by a lorry). I was mean when I cursed too much. So, gonna shut for a moment and good..here come another chunky gift,,I was having a bad fever on my second day of Ramadhan. Swear to god, my head gonna blow like atomic particles. (pessimals). I was actually on leave but things going upside down and it turn up to be my worst two days of Ramadhan.

Yeah, I went frenzy these few days because

1. I cannot have my Starbuck

2. I cannot have Burger King for lunch

3. My health is damn crucified

Tell ye what, fever during Ramadhan is soooo not cool. You'll get dehydrated and end up being an octopus lying on bed. However, on this holy month I'm expecting the bless and blithe frm the almighty. Just wish this Ramadhan end up good and bring cherish to everybody regardless of what religion they are.

I miss him to death

2011-07-29T13:47:00.003+08:00

That was rather controversial title but ultimately, yes I do. Lemme tell you a piece of my mind about him. The person that I can stand for years with, tho he's away somewhere across d globe but he seems close to something in my chest (we call it heart). Its like singing Jessica Jarrel song and that Bieber boy "so crazy is this thing we called love, now that we got it we just cnt give up"..hahah..sound too epic, to mushy corny cheesy cholestrol !!! Tell you what, today I feel like I miss him to death and eventually I feel like I wanna hear his guitar string playing song and his annoying questions like "do i care" that left some mark inside here (pointing to my lil amygdala) Seriously, when he's being awesome,I'm jealous wiv him. Every minutes dat he spent being awesome outthere, doing cool things I'm just glad and proud. (like going for social work and travel around..cool ain't it)..Those minutes turn up to be the moment that I wanted to have everyday.

Its been awhile since I've heard frm him and I just wish him to come back home and rockin my day again. Even tho if I were to be called slow for downloading his fav songs and I love to answer back to him annoyingly , thats the moment I love d most. When he's Chucky d blur and terrifying innocent, to a complete uncle who's maturity taught me bout life and to an insane grandpa who gonna nag and being "poyo" bout some things. It turn up to be the best thing I ever think of..(I'm so dead if he read this..lol..sorry XXXXX...I exposed you a bit).. quick, leave Cambodia already..I'm kindda bored and almost a dead zombie here,,huhu..Someone across d globe!

Don't Mess With Novel Lover

2011-07-28T08:24:00.003+08:00

The effervescent of reading novels had been running in my vein since I was a little me. Do you know the feeling of getting into the power of words? Its amusing, novels taught me how to imagine things without seeing it. There were points where you just couldn't wait to flip to next pages and there's a vibes of emotional engagement with the storyline. As for me, thriller & horror will always be my prime choice. Once you flip d first page you won't be able to get up anymore because d churning of getting to d end. (like I skipped meals for novels). However, I realized that not everyone can bare sitting and staring at the 10 point fonts even for 5 minutes. I remembered d last time I talked to someone from d bus station, and dat person kindda annoyed me because he talked non-stop bout things dat only on his sides of interest. I was just cursing inside my head wishing d brag cud stop just for once. Just imagine, he talked about nonsense way of sitting and how you should treat your feet in lukewarm water which happened to be in plastic basin only. Urgh..1 hours for that, I'm sorry d next day I stepped out from dat bus station and avoided his daffy speeches. Afterall he's a stranger and I prayed to god please make him stay away frm me.

The thing dat make me furious is that, at that time I was half way reading my "Twisted Wing-Ruth Newman" and d guy asked me "Best sangat ke baca buku cerita macam itu?". What he was trying to say is that what so good about reading that kind of books and he started to brag bout facts and everything. I told him, this is my passion, it gave me the sense of excitement and I can tell you that my home now is like a mini library, Ken Follet, Sidney Sheldon, Peter James, Keith, Steig Larson..etc they all sat happily on the bookshelves. Suddenly my adrenaline started to kick with fury as he said those books doesn't expose any moral values. That was the most idiotic and sophomoric statement I ever heard. It was rather shallow and he claimed that its better to read motivational books. Name me any motivational books?? C'mon I read Tony Buzan's, Chicken Soup For The Soul, I'm OK you're OK..(that was d lame move of a stranger, when you dunno ppl just don't brag too much)..I was laughing hard inside my intestine knowing that "you just don't know me".

I tell him what, the reason people writes because there are people who reads. The reason why they create such storyline because they want to get readers to imagine and if he wants moral of the story I tell yeh, only real readers can pick up things to learn. That's why I said earlier, I learnt through novels. I guess just don't mess with novels lover because we care bout what we like. We think what we do is awesome!

Childhood !

2011-07-26T13:15:00.003+08:00

Sometimes you felt that you're so close with your dream,,like you can smell the savory color in a wingspread but sometimes there were just too many images and its overlapping each other. In the the vision that we captured was blur. Let me share something about dream, as it can come in many ways. At some point you don't even know that you're dreaming (how's that??). This peculiar thing that we called dream can be real if we knew the secret of making it real but ultimately not all of them can step their feet in your life. There still some..some that waiting to be unveiled. (Pffft start to be corny again). I'm pretty sure every childhood life happen to be different. As for mine, its not different but weird instead. When you're young the biggest possibility of you having your own circle is big. Afterall, kids are those who fond to make friends. You know why?Because when you're just an innocent toddler you still don't know complicated reasoning. You don't have to worry about human being honesty, sincererity and you don't have to bother the term strangers. It was like your world is a plain canvas with never a dark spot and you have fun coloring it. Until you grow up and found out the plain canvas was filled with almost everything and thats the starts of misery.

However, its not d time to talk bout misery,,I wanna talk about my weird childhood that color my life..lol..I was really ethusiastic bout writing and books. I started writing my first poem when I was 7 and my first english book was when I was 3 years old. I love books damn much but I wasn't really into my study thing. I love exploring the unknowns ..weird ain't it..but i love reading..

Hey gotta go 1st...work waiting...

This is my recent activity..wandering in KL city wiv my girlfriends (photo taken by ima at May Tower Residence)

Raising Fund

2011-07-25T13:52:00.002+08:00

Its been awhile and we're not talking bout few days but months, man I miss blogging like freaking much but time never permit me to do so. Poor d tickling clock, I never have time to start breathing. I've been involve with loads of fantastic things. I help out in raising fund for the kids through UNICEF and we got our go green caimpaign and that's awesome. Above of all, Discover Race is most triumph event ever! I've been givin all out and its really a fun day!! I really like the time we spend out buying materials across the town and end up with absurds finding and I like the time we all sit together making flags for the race. This is probably d experience that we can never learn from books (seriously).

It was really a busy and tiring day back there but equals to so much thing that I've learnt. I guess its worth it. Before I escape the hectic day, I'd like to make an announcement which already 3 weeks due..lol..I had turn 22! big thanks to Chucky because he made it to wish me before the actual day :) I love you damn much!! and ...and..I made it to watch Harry Potter!It was really a day because I went to watch d movie with my lil bro and LUCKY us..dat was d last sit for us!!thank god..We're almost cursing when d flashing light showed that the room is full...but dat our damn fuckin lucky day..and yeay but sad it was d last episode of HP :(..wonder if there any following movie for Albus Severus Potter !!!see ya gotta go virtual world

Working Life May to June so far

2011-06-18T15:19:00.003+08:00

HEY ALL!! seriously I've been as busy as ever. Offices work & everything make my world goes upside down and even back ad forth for a while. I miss blogging like super alot. Life has to go on no matter what happen. Even when you only have half life, you still gotta breathe easy with it (even if its not easy). Okay, I'm in workin life now, so most of my time I spent drilling ideas for training and I need to figure it out the missing pieces that my manager told me. I'm sticking out things together. Have you ever feel so helpless and you don't understand anything that the person said to you. You just stared but your mind wonder in the other world. "Loosing concentration" that happen because your mind is fully concentrated with thoughts..non-job related thoughts. Swear to god it kills.
That's what happen in daily life, you have tons of things, ultimately it switch on your mental disabilities. Sometimes, its funny when your manager said things and you cant figure it out any single thing that she said..its laughable. You have to frown millions time for the key words. Its totally different when I was in school. I understand what they say and I can do it. Seriously m in a big trouble. I hope my friend were doin okay..I miss the good old day. I miss Kuching! I feel like the piece of peace that I got in the past was from tht place. Here, back in KL you have 24 hour traffics. You feel like you wanna die when you sit for quite sumtime in the car waiting the traffic to be normal. Just praying, and it will never hppen..and everyday my best friend is Starbuck. Americano & Cream chips are my bestie here.
Worst come to worst when I loose track of "Chucky"...Shud I go to England???Hunt him down????I'm on a rocking ship..

Towards the last day in CAMPUS

2011-05-04T21:32:00.002+08:00

Its not a hateful week after all, lol..changed of perception. Thanks to chucky, seriously i like his voice, diz time around i really2 like them :)..he played guitar very well. Pls god dun make me fall for him twice..hehe..if i cud have d whole nite just to listen to his singing, pls i rather not sleeping..thanks chucky, i love you damn much!thanks to mie too for loaning me her broadband. Yeah, I was supposed to buy one but, reckless me and my silly obsession over esprit..i've used it. I dun remember much bout how d money can be vanished frm my pocket. My piece of brain just cudnt let me think about it i gez..hahah..

I have 4 days to go before permanently leaving this school (university). Sad but i have to leave..for good. To my friends dat i known all ths time sake, u guys were awesome, to dewi , irene, deb, khad, marthya..u guys make me gay!!thanks to u i forget d time i need to cry cuz u guys gimme bunch of mirth. Thanks to mie, tim, aleng, kin and ida..for being marvellous to me, u huys are sewel forever :) thanks to Honda Getz for driving me to classes and givin me shelter for rainy day and taking me berfoya2 too..:D Thanks to my uni for giving me d best experience ever in my life. This is d last thing dat i wanna forget if i have to choose. Thinking bout those crazy 3 years, seriously i cudnt believe it has end. Climbing 3rd floors were just routine, going for jogging and stalking ashton and the foods. Tho it was rather stupid but, dats wat left in my temporal and frontal lobe. The defnition of fun.

Whatever You WAS a friend

2011-05-03T15:25:00.003+08:00

Hey suppp...diz cud be d most hateful week ever. Seriously I dun wanna start braggin bout d nonsense. Somebody just poke my nerve anyway. She said

if u really care, u wouldn't have done or say such things. i thought that's how friendship works. don't just ignore everything when u know that it'll hurt others' feelings. I've seen enough my friend. u're doing it purposely. not to say that i'm d "good guy" here..just to let u know that i don't see any reasons why i deserved to be treated that way.

April 27 at 10:45pm

Well, dunno if i missed smth, but being a girl really complex. You need to think more than twice whether ur friends really did it purposely or not. My say is...if I were her, I'll let it go. How do u define maturity if u urself pretend dat ur friend does not exist and purposely make us look bad in social networking site. Dat was dumb jock (xcuse me for using it on girl). Honestly, m not a mean person but wen it come to this dozens of questions pop out in my head. I dun feel like looking at her face after all. She who thinks she value friendship dat much (i supposed) probably got smth wrong in her mind. A lil misunderstanding had spread into bigger cut wen her strangers friend mocking us. What was dat? matured? I dun think so, dat was rather being an asshole. I wasn't a bitch until d day she declare us (and me) as a bitch and bastards. Frankly, does she noe dat those dirty words was outta date. *shame!
Sometimes god gives us one brain because He know dat one brain had caused enough mess. I suggest she who declare herself victimized by bitches to use her brain. Frankly she need to learn self control. We never insult her in public as much as what she did to us and still dey wanted to call themselves matured??whoaa round applause. I was wrong judging d outer n inner of a book i guess. Perhaps its better to stop looking at the surface. Cmon you ain't no in masquerade party. You are d shallow retard thinker. Who never thought bout your deed over ppl. One who never being so thankful for all d friendship dat she had. She'd d one who never value hard time together. Sorry to say, you had wound my respect. I've seen enough too.
Especially when we all tolerate whatever she wanted to and she gave us shit start insulting us in public. No remorse knowing you but a remorse because you've shown ur color a bit late.
To friends outthere, appreciate your friend. Dun hesitate to ask why and seek for explanation. Dun just bluntly putting serious accusation. Seriously, I've started to loose respect to those friend of hers. They never know us and they will never were. Person like dat fit to be mousey on d ceiling or cockroaches clan. Spread ur diseases away! You're just a weird dumbass

Gugu Gay

2011-04-26T12:38:00.001+08:00

Photo Tinks by WiddlyTinks.com

My stick Family

2011-04-26T12:36:00.003+08:00

My Stick Family from WiddlyTinks.com

Winter Season In Malaysia * I guess

2011-04-18T16:17:00.003+08:00

I'd rather live in d cave. I dunno why lately my ears become so sensitive over certain decibel of noise. Well, as usual, m meditating in library. A week to go before exam week, i feel half frenzy with my fyp and I have upside down timing for my finals' revision. Life is complicated anyway, tho we nvr meant to see it that way. So, I need more positive cells for 2 weeks of survival. Stress will make you feel like everyday is PMS..*scary. Currently playing in my player is "california king bed-rihanna". Its a nice song, ever since rihanna become bad girl monster, i'm loosing my innocence over her. *seriously. I like her slow musics better than her nonsense whatever song. Now, Next to You by Chris Brown & Justin Bieber. I'm not really a Bieber fan, but I like few of his song. It favors me tho..:D but to be his fan. *HELL no.

Its raining outside, so I bet anyone can guess d temperature inside diz building. It feels like being in ice box. I nvr knew Malaysia had turned into a country of below 0 degree Celsius. In this place (called CAIS) sure it does. OH yeah I read ma friend's blog juz now. What captured my attention was her latest post. Hmm when I think bout it, I did make a few lines from there :D what girls say and what does it really mean. Of course, guys think it as simple as it just words. Sometimes when i think about it pinch me..lol..Some girls just being to protective over her ego, some cared too much on not ruining their relationship, some just love to beat around d bush. Seriously where does it takes you at the end of d day. Sounds like point right?

And guys, *through observations, think they dun understand diz girl whatsoever languages ppl called. So, another code will do :D. I like that post, can I reblog it ..hehe..seriously girls n boys are d same species but it seems like they're cuming frm diff planet. I dun wanna make analogies, cuz my analogy always turn up to be aweful and outside tracks..lol..urghh, its chilly here, even typing can't make your fingers warm.jeez..and yeay..diz wednesday we have a farewell vacation at Damai Resort. I'll totally rock my day. Its my final sem n i wanna spend as much time as I could with my friends..:) and to someone across d globe, i'll definitely grow fat soon :) so mark your word :D ily!

Part l: Suprise for Dewi

2011-04-16T11:08:00.006+08:00

Happy Birthday to my gedix girl, Dewi !! I hope she had so much fun on her day, seriously its not her alone but US..we're being extremely gay and I ended up sleeping like a drop dead person. Birthday Part l, was awesome, I tot i heard Irene said "pls dun take too long, I have work to do" Yeah ryte, we spent a day at Bing! Oh yeah Martha juz cudn't stop forcing us to eat her beef lasagna. Damn, it taste good & hell I'm full :) This is d first surprise for Dewi..

I tot d day end soon BUT we're going insane for laser tag. The fun part was, we were suppose to tag our opponent BUT..we always shot one another, which in d same team. *rolling eyes*. Khad was havin a hard time since she bumped her head on smth. (sure d bruise will come out in few days) I love shooting Debbie frm d back cuz she's too busy confronting ppl on her forth. Pinky was screaming like a maniac everytime she run here and there shooting everyone.

It was the best 20 minutes finally I sweat all over (not really sweating actually). Seriously!!!A++ for laser tag & pls dun talk bout exams. :D ! Our trip did not end at laser tag, of course, its a hot day & u spent time running here and there in d dark to tag ppl. I'm thirsty man! so next destination was "ais kacang" hahaha..I love Swee Kang! I dunno othr drinks but I'll definitely order Jagung Susus..wahhaaaaaaaa..so refreshing!!..
Well, onething dat i noe bout the girls, we had a bad decision making. It took us 30 min to decide a place to eat, a place to go, a place to pee..gosh! we're really bad at it ;) So here come d decision making session,,after a few minutes paused we decided to go for bowling. Oh diz girl really have extra mitochondria. Bowling was suppose to be awesome but our line always got reschedule & whatever high points dat we got was deleted. It was frustrating but again we're sweating because we laughed too much.
Finally, a place for dinner!! ( i noe diz will take more than half an hour..fuhh). Sharing planet?delizze?khatulistiwa?the spring?....=Kim Bay at spring...haih..I had a very nice nasi lemak there & i tot chinese dun like spicy fuds..hmmm...That's a very tiring schedule of the day. As a result, I had a feeble leg and all my limbs aches badly, haha..thats just Part l....

Busy Day-Presentation-Bone Cracked

2011-04-09T09:25:00.003+08:00

Hello bloggie..it has not been ages but for quite sometime i have not been blogging. Simple answer, "I'm busy". According to d vacation stamp on d right box of my blog, I have around 3 weeks here. It shouldn't be a mirth nor mournful day when the time comes. I'll be leaving all d 3 years hardship and wonderful experiences. So do my girls..well, lets not be in a gloomy mood. Its Saturday, of course, weekend is d only time I'll be having a supernova internet connection. Yet, i still missing something..dat someone across d globe. Lately I have few bad lucks tossing it's jinx around me. I missed a few important text frm someone that i've been waiting for. Too bad, if its not sleeping then it has to be my phone is in silent mode. Funny thing, my rommie saw me sleeping with hand holding my cellphone. I'll wait again till he text me :) I promise! huhu

Speaking bout waiting, last Monday is d day that I've been waiting for. Final Year Project presentation day! Lucky me, Mr Phillip was my evaluator. I couldn't imagine getting another lecturer as my evaluator. That fatherly man deserve a crown for a very supportive comment. Way to go Mr Phill !! Everything seems okay. However I have to work out extra time since I have 4 report to compile. Its making me quite busy for a "supposed" relaxing day. By the the time my presentation over I can scream and jump till d cloud nine! Its the last presentation I ever had in university. I don't have to present anything anymore as a student !!!yeay!!!..I love presentations and i hate it too. Probably my lecturer felt tedious wen it comes for presentations. I hate my face either, for being on the stage or the rostrum talking things..well its over btw..they dun have to see me with my weird slang & debating on my cost benefit analysis. :D..

Last nite I slept at 8.30 pm till 6 am, I felt my bone cracked every-time I turn around on my bed. Seriously, d sign of tiredness. Fuhhh..I hope today will end good :)

Bloody Crap

2011-03-27T14:07:00.002+08:00

Here come Sunday again. Frankly, my life is kindda on a tip of iceberg. Talking bout overdue and the undone...(tears of blood starts to drip). The word "tons" dun really come out bizarre since i've been repetitiously consuming endless efforts. Why the hell d work still coming in. I've blocked d door wiv protective seal..i dun wanna do any of those job anymore! seriously, i feel like throwing all d paper down d stream. Oh any alien pls eat my homework. My total accumulation of brain damage and residue of retarded-ness had exceed my max limit. I'm gonna be doomed!!! I hate doing diz paper thing anymore!!!! Crap work..crap assignment, dats all just crap things. Suddenly assignment make u feel more stupid than ever. I thought course work helps for better understanding. S*** understanding a company doesn't seem harmful but what if we have 4 organization. You're talking bout internal issues man!!!I'm fed up wiv stupid assignments related to organization intervention whatsoever. Its bloody stressful.

Things Called Love

2011-03-22T14:45:00.000+08:00

Sugar Glider

2011-03-20T09:36:00.004+08:00

Around 9 a.m today I officially talked to a Chinese girl frm FEB (fculty of economic n business), surprisingly asking her bout financial analysis ! terrific :) I had started a social contact. Developing more communication skill is basically crucial for me. Well, I have problems chatting wiv someone i barely know. This is a good kick start for me. The motto of the day "EXPAND YOUR SOCIAL WEB" . Actually I have diz assignment on cost benefit analysis, i swear d laptop saw me pulling hair doing budget and investment return. Obviously m an HR with totally zero knowledge on finance and investment whatsoever. So, yesterday I went through couple of finance books which ended up futile. It was a good attempt tho but, with complex jargon, I can die drooling on d text book. Seriously, studying is tough :( (specifically finance). Again, today, I invest my time wandering d beauty of numbers for my project proposal. I want it to be perfect, like when ppl read our report they'll say, ths is comprehensive. Hmm..anyone wiv finance and investment background are welcomed to help me :)

Here come d best part, I had fallinlove with a baby sugar glider. It was so small, innocent and deserve a 24 hour hugs. I wanna have one. For d past 48 hours I had an argument wiv my roomie,because she said dat cute thing look like mousey..euwww no no no..its cute and its not mousey, Its a marsupial !! :0 Gotta wait till m home and settle down on my 1st week of intern then m gonna buy one. I prepared a name for my lil pumpkin "ZIFFY" ziffy junior will be my best partner ever! :) so do ziffy senior..lol..I have couples of names before, 1st Rufus, but "someone" said "xbest" so I changed to Pixie..I thought pixie will be a great name but, i think she will end up being too bitchy and extremely gedik. So I said to "Mr Ziffy Senior" m gonna named it after you..ther, d word ZIFFY just pop out in my brain :) The history of Ziffy's name. Seriously its cute, I'll buy d sleeping pouch and jog her around (since I love jogging) Weeeeee..Cute thing, wait for me, I'm buying you baby!

Fired Up

2011-03-17T11:37:00.004+08:00

Endless due date + workload + depression = Insanity

However,

Insanity/Love =Life is awesome

Its a few days off I gave for myself to diz blog. As usual, stuff and assignment that act like a sulfuric acid poured on my brain. Swear to god it was hectic. So, d first thing to do is sort mysev out, tho i feel like wearing my pants on my head. You see sumtime wen you're too busy working out ur stuff u even forget to do laundry and fix ur bed. Its like, wake up in d morning run for shower go to morning class, do assignment and stay up till 5 am in d morning (if necessary) and u keep on doing d same thing d next day.

Still, to everyone or to anyone lemme tell ya, how busy you're, dun ever skip meals! :) generate your power since u know u'll overused it. Currently m on weight-gain scheme. Yesterday, I bumped into my girl mates in matrix, guess what was d first word she used on me?skinny..you're getting skinny. Am I reli dat petite??jeez!!!okay frm now on m gonna eat alot (as cited in Mr hunky speech, 2011).

Lately i feel like my heart and my soul wandering across d globe :) totally miss him. Miles are just numbers...whats important is.... :)

This week, m running outta ATP cuz my mitochondria seemed flaccid for overload Kerb cycles. So I need to fired up!!!I need more fuel. lol

Explaining The Weekend

2011-03-13T10:59:00.002+08:00

Meow meow meow..okay, lets not do diz in front of "atok hunky". That person hates cat :). Whatta introduction i gave to y'll. :,( basically it so T.I.R.I.N.G...I had tons of of business still remain unfinished (wiv exclamation point) !!!!! I think there started to be sum bump and hump around my neck. I get so obsessed with my final year project. Okay people who says its easy to graduate??? K.M.A (diz is quite dirty..kiss ## ####) its horrific, you gonna have to burn ur eyeball in front of SPSS and excel plus, its gonna be so bothersome when d data u keyed in messing around about one or two. The whole thing will turn into disaster. I hope my internship cmpany doesn't read diz blog. Yeah ryte m so obsessed with SPSS (literary for hatred). I'm on ninth stage, where 1) getting a topic 2) looking for variables 3)creeping for literature review 4)choosing samples 5) designing items 6) supervisors says and evaluators stakes through your hearts (Presentations) 7) calling companies 8) collecting data 9) computing data! I cud have sum wholesome meals at a decent restaurant in 4 month from now and still thinking bout how freaky it was when I was a students. Jeez (no remorse)

If people still wondering what did a prick like do on weekend lemme tell yeh. This is my weekend, writing in blogs, doing SPSS, looking for bok in library bookshelves and end up freezing and get sum extreme urge to pee. :D This weekend I hav barbeque with uncle and aunts (compulsory), i have a night sleepover and 20 hours of giggling wiv my lil girl -pumpkin peanut butter- cousin (najwa). Of course I have to play with d dolls and watching tv. Last nite I let my lappy switched on with SHREK Forever After till morning. I fell asleep like a polar bear. Also I was hoping that college WIFI didn't act stingy and shitty. Seriously, I can go vile wiv the internet connection. Urgh damn! i shud've grab sum broadband wen I was back to peninsular last week. I wanna text wiv someone across d globe (atok). I tell you what wireless connection, m talking to you wireless connection! I miss him!! (gez m a bit insane for talking to wireless connection) Now I feel like dying and for d god sake I imagine myself stranded in the oasis. Afterall it an awesome weekend. Since my gugu gay girls are up to something next week so, here I am. And yeah, we have carnival in college The BRC Carnival. Unless they invited the script or kina grannis then only m eager to jump off d floor to d carnival. Otherwise, foods are my point of interest.

Song of the week: Back to December-Taylor Swift, Bruno Mars-Marry You, Heart Aint Brain-Chris Brown,Valentine-Kina Grannis-Valentine

New Song of the week-checkout My Chemical Romance, The Ready Set, Neyo ft Pitbull

It was so tiring, here some tips

2011-03-10T15:21:00.004+08:00

I shall weep till d last drop of my tears :( hah!!lucky i sneaked off for 7 days. Back to college was d most tormenting stuff in my life, even in anyone's life. I can't help it, assignments were like choc raisins fallin from d sky. It was making myself looked like a ginger-man biscuit in a glass of milk (gasping for air..help..help). My phone just cannot stop ringing for once :(...I have like 10000 things to settle before March and I got an extreme backache (anywhere near me nothing ergonomics). I would really appreciate if smbdy could help me think as a second brain. I need to have two me..one will think for me one is for fun :) (cut it off, its narcissism beyond conscious). Its damn "kepak" (wat sarawakian called for tired).

However, whatever happen!!! i need to stay cool and step d hell out of it. Think its just an ant bite ,not a lion bite. So here I have few tips of meditations

Avoid Swearing / Shouting - Many people think that this calms them down because it releases bottled up energy / anger. This is a common misconception. YES. Release your anger. Do not hold it in all the time or you will explode! Do not take out your bottled up anger on those around you. Swearing only hypes you up more. You think you feel better but really, all you've done is put yourself in a destructive habit. If you need to shout, find a place of solitude and let out your anger. Cry. Do not punch a wall. Find a pillow or something that you won't cause any harm to and scream into if you must. Just avoid taking your anger out on others because then guilt will stress you even more. Talk about your problems as they occur; don't put it off! Taking care of the problem now, can eliminate the possibility of blowing up later because your anger was taken out a long time ago with civilized discussion.
Its probably easier said than done but focus on what needs to be done. Panicking and acting over emotional is damaging to yourself which can make matters worse. Ending up in the hospital because of a stroke or heart attack is not the way you plan on taking care of the stressful situation
Don’t self-medicate. Alcohol and drugs may provide a temporary escape, but your problems will be waiting for you when you get back to reality. Besides, do you want an addiction problem in your life, too? You yourself may not care about it, or even be aware of it, but it will affect the people who love you

Also some eating tips,

Eat moderate portions. If you keep portion sizes reasonable, it's easier to eat the foods you want and stay healthy. Did you know the recommended serving of cooked meat is 3 ounces, similar in size to a deck of playing cards? A medium piece of fruit is 1 serving and a cup of pasta equals 2 servings. A pint of ice cream contains 4 servings. Refer to the Food Guide Pyramid for information on recommended serving sizes.
Eat regular meals. Skipping meals can lead to out-of-control hunger, often resulting in overeating. When you're very hungry, it's also tempting to forget about good nutrition. Snacking between meals can help curb hunger, but don't eat so much that your snack becomes an entire meal.
Reduce, don't eliminate certain foods. Most people eat for pleasure as well as nutrition. If your favorite foods are high in fat, salt or sugar, the key is moderating how much of these foods you eat and how often you eat them.
Identify major sources of these ingredients in your diet and make changes, if necessary. Adults who eat high-fat meats or whole-milk dairy products at every meal are probably eating too much fat. Use the Nutrition Facts panel on the food label to help balance your choices.
Choosing skim or low-fat dairy products and lean cuts of meat such as flank steak and beef round can reduce fat intake significantly.
If you love fried chicken, however, you don't have to give it up. Just eat it less often. When dining out, share it with a friend, ask for a take-home bag or a smaller portion.
Balance your food choices over time. Not every food has to be "perfect." When eating a food high in fat, salt or sugar, select other foods that are low in these ingredients. If you miss out on any food group one day, make up for it the next. Your food choices over several days should fit together into a healthy pattern.

Back In Town

2011-03-09T08:10:00.001+08:00

“Back in town! My beloved Selangor, here I come!” Despite of skipping class and registering on temporary delinquent program seriously, m home for work (plus sum fun). It was a great 7 days of short unplanned break but intentionally done for several reasons. I was back to peninsular for my final year project and internship interview. Thanks to Dew2 and friends for sending me off at d airport d othr day :) sure all famished with burgers (I shall noe myself). This is going to be a long post of d day so bare wimme people. While people were sitting for HRIS class (obviously tedious) I was partially awake and become a lazy homo sapien as lazy as ever. First day at home, yeeeehoooo!!a short break from work and I’m sure it will turn up with so much fun (yes it was). However, it was d day for my brother checkups. Well, we have lil blood errand (my adik was goin to refill his blood,lol). Guess what, I waited for 8 hours (as per flight to UK) gosh. I felt like having a Carpal Turner Syndrome. The bad part was, hospital wifi blocked media based web site. Seriously!!!! We’re talking bout sitting on d chair with lil ergonomic features for 8 hours. Sure my tummy singing “back to December”. It ended very late because therz sum problem with d blood checking procedures. Heishhhh..

As for my lil bro birthday, we had a day out. No parents!! We watched Adjustment Bureu (starring by my 23^rd bf, Matt Damon, awwww so hot). Then we have a lunch at pizza! Ths is d best part because I saw my lecturer which I believed supposed to be miles away across south east china sea. Damn, Dr Tan!!watcha doin in KL. It was funny and he say hi to us. Our favorite Dr Tan ,lol. I was of course being a 4G fer a moment by sending text messages to my girls (gosh, I met my lecturer having lunch at d same restaurant dat I’m in). Yeah, and d next day we held a birthday party for my lil bro. Secret recipe was big enough till I felt my intestine was stuck with choc fudge. Jeez!!! It was d best day ever in fact of being extremely famished. I managed to get my questionnaire back!yeay.

BTW above all of those crappy and fun things dat happened to me THIS was the greatest I ever experienced. THIS, what I called “I.N.T.E.R.V.I.E.W”. Fuhh..it was normal wen I jumped into d lift to 33th floor at multi purpose tower. It was a nice location, I saw old town coffe, secret recipe next to d building and it was damn close to SOGO. Now lemme tell u do and don’ts during interview. Everytime u hav one pls juz pls prepare!!!!read anything, because u need to crap something so dat dey will buy u. Okay, ths company was awesome, because dey gimme personality test and..and…AND..a CASE STUDY..dammnit! a case study, lucky I browsed smth and print it out a day before. One more thing wen u’re in d interview pls juz stay calm because if u’re to be panicked u can’t even swallow ur throat (fear of d interviewer will hear d sounds coming frm d throat). Huhu..it was d longest interview I ever had in my life. 2 hours man!2 hours!!! I was selling d best of me. If you were given a personality test juz make sure it was right one of yours, be sure to remember what your traits are. Just dun be afraid of exposing your weakness BUT u must have d skill how to manipulate those weakness to be your greatest strength. Never avoid interviewer eyes. I was there trying to make eye contact wiv her. My interviewer was a nice person. She asked me a lot of things. Really a lot,,huhu..and I was accepted to be an intern there!! Yeay…It was a tiring day,, I feel like pulling off my spinal chord and jumped into d coffin. Fhewww…

This short break ended up good, I’ll be catching my flights tmrw eve and I dun fell like goin back to college..huuuu..and d biggest thing is I miss atok hunky :) damn much. My heart ain’t brain grandpa..oryte, I’ll wrap diz things up. My 7 days was awesome, tiring but cool and I miss atok freakin much. I hope he’s on his pink of health!

Irene's Birthday

2011-03-09T08:05:00.002+08:00

Welcome March

2011-03-01T23:05:00.002+08:00

Its quite a sturdy day. I feel so compressed like being stuffed into a zip file (totally). I have a high level of anxiety due to final year project fever. Ths is quite killing me at d moment. You see to deal with reality of work life is smth dat u can't escape. This is not like sanction movie wher u hav to swim hell hard ad strive for oxygen. Its literary that way but wen it comes to psychology, those r d masterpiece of disaster. I'm suffering from backache since last week was a double mid-term combo. Sounds awful & nasty since i have to finish my 6 days stressed over theories and models. I'm beginning to feel like my heart & brain jump into d river. (cmon m still young and i dun need diz backache whatsoever)

Well, before i go whining more and more towards d unnecessary, i need to say one thing! Hello March and buhbye February..This scares me a bit, talking bout time wimme is like talking wiv ur hand full of grenade. Here come d best part today, love love love..huhu..dats all i can say..oaky enough bout that. :)

Knock-Out

2011-02-27T15:35:00.002+08:00

Bad-Singing-Composure

2011-02-27T14:40:00.002+08:00

overtime always happen wen its friday, wednesday, tuesday and anyday..haha..i shud've said everyday. lol. My hair had grown unconditionally since i left my loreal serum at dewi's. Okay, its saturday yesterday. *of course everybody know bout it..duhhh..
Seriously we had a mini errand yesterday. All d gloom busters were on board ready to go for some trip so called we-sing-badly-til-rain. Oh yeah, a nite before we had sum cd making session which i skipped for some kodomo lion dream. I passed out (no-alcohol ok) after got back frm sharing planet (gonna get to diz later). So, i hav no idea what happen, of course sum of em were great in sabotage-ing ME. Here come d saturday, we're off at 6.30..supposedly..sum technical problem (which cannot be stated reasons and excuses of what and why). The journey started with CD (1). Sorry to Dewi for have had to listen to our messy voice composure. It was fun anyway. As much as what i wanted to keep for my memory.

Lunch were at SUSHI KING..awesome,i had to say dat okonomiyaki is d thing dat is refuse-able..damn,,i hadn't been ther for quite sumtime..Now m hungry really. :(. yesterday was awesome..its not just yesterday but d day before yesterday..Its food tour i called it. Since miss vick had us called food lover, no offence we are..and me of course xcept for vege things!otherwise its ON baby!

Thursday kah?

2011-02-24T15:47:00.002+08:00

Since m goin to pack at 6 I kindda have 2 more hour to finish my mind map & sum un-finished business. I thought thursday gone so well till i dun wanna be in tmrow. Gosh another bookshelves fell on me. Life is so funny anyway. They gave you exciting feel and turn it to ashes in a split second. Work crushed my neurons and hormones so here we go again, the upside down sleeping table. Cmon there has to be sum values for diz week and d February. February dark clouds still absorbing my luck. As far as I could remember i my goldfish memory, ths week I had tons of report.Oh yeah m a secretary for student council and industrial visit. That was so not awesome. I had my days crippled over sum formatting and formal words. :(

So, I hate whining, it tires me. huhu..lets just listen to
Overboard-Justin bieber Ft Jessica Jarrell
I'm coming home-P Diddy ft Skylar Gray
Valentine-Kina Grannis
Marry You-Bruno Mars
Girls at the Window-Bruno Mars

Dark Clouds vs Love

2011-02-20T12:54:00.003+08:00

Ohh it was soo tiring. FYI i crashed my fingers for assignment, burnt my eyeballs for mid-terms, turning deaf for sum rapid motivational speech, mute for direct presentations and i got a vampire hunter stake me badly. I'm not officially dead but this week is so not awesome. It was awful and bad and ugly and nasty. whewww...d dark cloud of all unfortunate curses and spells fell on my head diz week. It was raining quite bad with lil cylone and sum volcano eruptions (if u noe what i mean). In spite of being rational i turned to be more than that, a person wiv no feeling and prick head was born. Thanks to d zillion stakes dat I regarded as big fat humiliation. I repeat, the big fat humiliation and insults. My bad, it was my very first time, insulted before 200 crowd and I felt like a bookshelves just dumped on me. Whoaaa...there goes, I got some shaky esteem for the entire week thinking how cud i be so cool answering such pathetic questions from some pathetic person who being so pathetically ill-minded. I was cool, d fact dat i was not spitting out my nasty vocabs deserve some compliments. Its either, m matured or as a leader i shud just let it go and accept d fact dat nobody's perfect. Probably both. Screw d protocols and everything. I got tired everytime I got mad of smth. But those two kids in dat hall dat day shud feel relieved because I dun turn into vampire and rip their head off instantly. Seriously annoyed by d biggest tragedy in my life. Jeez, they just a new intake students who's not aware of cultural changes. Screw d law faculty, diz is human development faculty, not tug war academy. We behave with ethics, speaks with ethics (tho sumtimes i cross d ethic of speaking), we give ideas diplomatically.

We are livin in a peaceful culture (scrutinize dat kids)..huh
However, m cool wiv it, they can say wat they want, its not affecting me a bit. In fact, they r d one who have to work harder to prove dat they are better den us..gud luck kids, welcome to d psychological war..lol..seriously no hard feeling, dey shud'vebring management books wiv them and open d leadership chapter. Theories help kids! haha..its funny but its ugly and nasty :)
I just have one luck, wic is mr hunky :) i got sum virtual rose. Ohhh d love of my life ! He did make me forget bout every single unfortunate things in my week. huhuhu..

Place The Order

2011-02-12T20:34:00.000+08:00

It had been bleary days back there. I was convicted into work life balance issue. (wish i hv remote cntrol to fast fwrd and rew things). Well no such thing okay. There's a dark side of it dat u nvr noe what it is. So, dun wish for too much magic. I dun wanna be in history book. Saying dat in 2011, a girl was disappeared with mysterious manner. She was nowhere to be found till 2030, archelogist found her tomb which stated dat she died 70 years ago, before her actual birth. What was she? a vampire? dang~

Shall we talk bout othr stuff now? death is d only word dat i wanna avoid till i have my name carved on d CEO door. Every wednesday, i'll treat my staff with choc indulgence and my secretary dun have to pour coffee for me. Basically, m gonna be the nicest person in d office. (but seriously if they messed up i can't tell how horrendous i can be, retrenchment!) Seriously can we talk about food now? Me and my normal imbalance eating hormone. (normal imbalance-was it oxymoron). I love foods but i love western foods more. So sorry that's just me. Its not dat i dun like locals but watch my statement. I love foods but "i love western more". Well, 3 years of me staying in Kuching i have top 5 favorite spot dat i use to get my insanity source.

Here we go:
1. Sharing Planet
Regular Order: Supreme d volail
Drink: Peach Iced Tea
2. Kenny Rogers
Regular Order:Quarter meals (black pepper)-macaroni cheese, fruits, rice
Drink: Tropical Paradise :)
3. Delizze
Regular Order: Chicken Blue smth2
Drink: Guava Juice
4. Secret Recipe
Regular Order: Chicken +Black Pepper+ Rice
Drink: Orange Apricot Slushie
5.Basaga
Regular Order: Chicken Chop
Drink:Lemonade

That were all my fav fuds. Seriously i nvr changed my menu whenever I went ther. So do wen get into pizza, top 3 will be carbonara, bologonise and beef peperoni. I will never ever getbored wiv d same meals cuz dat one struck my heart. huhu..Once i love d things served before me dat will d same order for 35 more years..hahah..
but i love locals tooo..i love tomyam so d very super much,the best restaurant goes to "de iris". super nice thai foods were served there. Now m starving already.Gotta go..got a bus to catch...library not awesome waitin wiv books and thesis..

What I Own I Appreciate

2011-02-07T22:41:00.005+08:00

We're happy because we deserve to be happy. We dun fake our happiness. So here I am summing up my total weeks of happiness. It doesn't mean that wen u feel ur life is not complete u have to be drowned in sorrows. I'm a girl who used to have sometimes epic feeling, so i write it up here in my blog, bout past things dat perhaps can be a lesson to be a better person tmrow. It doesnt mean wen i post smth aweful it will be aweful all d times. Those are just a seconds feeling dat eventually pop out in brain so dat m gonna say in my head "ths is my life, i noe m not messing wiv it". I'm just feeling good. I worked hard on it and m not afraid of showing off my felicity. (such a decent thinker). Life is like a wheel, everyone noe bout it..so just ride thru it. I'm sure things happen for reasons. Like why the hell d kerb at resource room front door rip my toe. I nvr like perfections, what come to me broken, m gonna try to stitch it and put it in d best place in my life.

Its not wrong either to have thought on perfection but everything come with price. Trust me, human will took for granted for it. That is why, I'm not whining ;) Somebody thought me well and i respect him for ths (atok hunky). I bet he didn't noe..lol..i adore u!!ngeee..ly frvr!

So, why wud u care bout owning and earning stuff dats not even shake a cell in my body system..pfftt..stay believin in myth u'll die of hallucination. Really i dun care bout attending a party with a funeral mood. Those who always look down on ppl will owez live life in guilts. Those who had ever bring a great pain to another can never escape fears of own-self. In diz world I totally avoid 3 types of ppl
1. one who took away ppl's exhilaration moments
2.one who took for granted
3. one who think life is too easy
Seriously, dun underestimate ppl cuz u're not good to be on dat sit to judge. What i own i appreciate. Heart aint brain forever in my life :) (i can get myself killed by posting ths) d one who called me hunky perky.

Integration

2011-02-07T07:16:00.003+08:00

The price of being honest and loyal can come into three forms, the good, the bad and the ugly. I'm not doing philosophy here. Above all three i picked "the good". Maybe because u wait patiently and get thru ovr sum silly thoughts so best part crawl back to u. So y the hell i'm into diz topic? oh yes, employee retention and "the anythng else". I was on a 10 pages self reflection papers which i dunno what did i typed on d microsoft word. (that's not d point!) okay, I had to look for 5 policies dat i wished my future organization will be having for their employees. Frankly, I'm not really into diz worklife balance policies. I dun have imagination of me having 5 kids and rushing over here and ther for them. What kind of brainstorming was dat?? Since I was so desperate to poke out ideas frm my brilliant lil neurons, i had to envisage such things. (ths is wat happen to a bachelor who got a write-up papers). Trust me, thinking is hard!
Here came d idea, like so old fashioned one..child& elder care center, flex hours,wellness at work and job sharing. What m i doin talking bout my papers in my blog??(ths is totally a peak of insanity). Yeah, think about it, wen u're a mother, as a primary caregiver u have like 10000 discrepancy hours btwn ur work and family, i dunno if that was enav. Plus, wen u're d sandwich generation dat wud be aweful cuz u have elders to be taken care off. i personally fel bad if i weren't be able to make it home wen my parents called me.

The rational of these policies is to give ppl integration btwn life and work. There is no 50% work and 50% family. Its just how u deal with it. You still can have time for love one while u're at work. How's dat...?let this future HR girl change the future for u!huhu..I'd love to if my future cmpny wud be like google, u have free meals, kids centres in d building, games and free gym membership..:) so m gonna be more loyal to d company, i'll work hard so dat my performance burst like a grenade!hahah..

Finally, i miss "atok hunky"

Beautifully defined. Are you tht pretty?

2011-02-04T18:56:00.004+08:00

Why do i have to post smth pathetic???okay..obviously, m young, partially cute (bluek,its a joke),happy :) haha. Mr heart ain't brain reli make me happy :) like wen u wake up u dun wanna stop smiling. Oh my, intoxicant again!

I was watchin korean drama and i learned smth. It was awesome wen ppl said u're beautiful. Trust me i disregard wen ppl tell me i'm a pretty thing. Something beautiful...how do u define it?
It is rather subjective, so my definition of pretty is wen someone can be real sincere saying something. Not because dey wanted to console bout stuff. Someone beautiful for me is someone who doesn't or never deceive othrs. She dun have to look innocent and cute. She who was never a bitch and make friends with deepest honesty. Something beautiful that I feel its true wen she is willing to share her point of view with no hesitation. Yeah, wen u're beautiful to me, i can see it. Towards what extent?? u nvr noe...

I'm not used to do corny things (well i just did..;)) Beautiful to me is when someone isn't being selfish for her own good. I can never define beautiful as someone who can politely greet others. Someone who behave like angel but holding a "bipolar personality". Well, someone is beautiful to me wen she can tell her own faults and do some corrective over it. Besides, she can bare others deceiving her and hold her emotion chaos. She, who can survive without decent meals .

So, basically i'm not pretty because non of those things work on me. I'm selfish, arrogant, aweful and i hate being called pretty. Urgh cmon, its obvious, m not it..I'm smth dat resembles insanity :).

Toothache

2011-02-02T07:21:00.002+08:00

It has been a good day, since I become d worst fungi-girl. No jokes, doin course work in d dark with winter gloves (I can't bare d freeze). If it doesnt appear in USA or UK..i think it does in Sarawak,Malaysia. I did a loathsome job in d room. I'm a moment away to print out my questionnaire anyway (how i hope i dun hav to do diz). Chirping sounds of birds telling me its goin to be a good day and i can go for jogging! yeay...I was craving for carbonara again, how m i goin to tell myself to divide d nutrient equally??why do they have to be more heinous to d legs. I relli cant get it!!

How old m I??n i still have a 1st tooth pain syndrome. I wonder how diz biological work on me cuz at my stage which no more a teenager (i dun even have dat side left on me) I have a growing teeth. Its rather ridiculous den fantastic..which mean i still can grow taller or what..160cm wasn't enav for me (i guess, so start dreaming being uma thurman wiv 180 height..tch). I'm such a gigantic dreamer (i can't accept ths). Ths is a sign of aging or what?So, because of diz I have to swallow porridge. (like cmon teeth dun do diz to me). Even d carbonara last taste like pain!!Ahhh,,i can go lunatic wiv such thing :(

Even singing make my teeth wanna blow!great today i gotta have another errand to my faculty (is it open btw? or d staff oredy in hols..hmm...

X.O.X.O

2011-01-31T18:16:00.001+08:00

Ths is my roomie, who happen to appoint me as her teddy bear nanny.
Believe me she asked me to feed dat thing with vitamin C and choc flava dutch lady :D

Keeping Up Weight

2011-01-31T17:44:00.002+08:00

Baa baa black sheep have you any wool..yes sir yes sir 3 bag full..haha..okay i start typing gibberish here, seriously what was i thinking? W.A.R.M.T.H !!it has been raining for 2 days, of course i feel like m in Stockholm.. Also it has been a sluggish day for me. I was able to get myself on shower in d noon (which i suppose beyond d hygiene rules, pffftt think dat was d perfect time not to be a freezing mummy). So, its been awhile m not posting anything, i dun hav much ideas to brag actually,its holiday and m not going back. That's d irony of my break as a student. I have bunch of stuff basically (i wonder does it kill me faster den a poison). I spend my time doing aerobic in d morning (with firework instrumental song) and jogging on d eve. Thts because i feel like i have a bit of fat on d thigh. (ridiculous aint it) but m not going to do ths for d sake of getting a zero size (absurds)..i'd like to maintain my health. Besides being 22 is not as young as ppl think it is. I'm concern on my cholestrol level. I just wish my body could grow and you noe..not that ppl call u skinny all d time. I've been eating alot and keeping up my weight. :)

On d othr hand, m so addicted to heart aint brain. Not just that but monalisa as well. They really have such a good music to listen to. Thanks to "Hunky grandpa" who gave me dat chris brown song dat now i'm downloading bout 30 of his song :). Thanks granpa (i noe he will kill me for calling him grandpa,but! it suit him well..hunky grandpa who lives somewhere across d globe). Last nite i dwnloaded afgan song..dat Afgan boy look like hero nakamura in HEROES..haha..seriously now i notice dat..not bad for a asian like him to hav a song called dia dia dia..think i've heard d tone somewhere before. One more thing is dat, i cant believe m hooked up with Korean dramas!!!oh god pls just make me stop..i noe dat my external still have broad spaces for such a thing. I mean its contagious!!!grrr..btw i gotta fly 1st..see u ppl soon!

2011-01-27T16:20:00.001+08:00

I eat alot :) Mr Hunky see this,i follow ur nasihat :)

Somewhere Across The Globe

2011-01-27T05:36:00.003+08:00

My back cracks :(. It is d most tiring week ever! Ther are so many things circulating around me. The final year project, its uhhh, harghhh.. anyone here can help me find a bank dat i can submit my research and interview, darn~oh m getting insane, reli getting insane. Feel I'm stranded smwhere across d globe dat have grasses and weeds for food. This ain't logic thinking. Okay i'll be mental..

However smth dat sparks my weeks really help me out. I sort out my life accordingly now. :) I will work harder!
1. to be happy all d time
2.wake up next morning and smile
3. eat alot so dat i grow up
4.behave
5. dont shit ppl
6. Put muse & chris brown in my music player
7. Listen to them when i...
8. Not to be over-stress

I love you world!Thanks for such awesome week :)

Bad Day,Bad Luck

2011-01-24T14:49:00.003+08:00

There's a cut on my feet and there's a blood stain in my shoe. Bad day, bad luck :(
It happened wen I was going out frm thesis room. Its either i had a black cloud following me or its just my unlucky day. Dat kerb!!!very d harmful,,seriously its like pulling my intestine out. "sakit gle!" . I purposely dun wanna take a peek on it cuz its bleeding T_T..apelah malang sgt today. Think i got an early signal over this. (i actually brought my cute tiger plast..hahah..it comes with colors and designs :)) at least m not dat freak out..

The Ballade of Monalisa [ILY panic! at the disco]

2011-01-24T14:43:00.001+08:00

She paints her fingers with a close precision
He starts to notice empty bottles of gin
And takes a moment to assess the sin she’s paid for...
A lonely speaker in a conversation
Her words are swimming through his ears again
There’s nothing wrong with just taste of what you paid for
Say what you mean tell me im right and let the sun rain down on me give me a sign
I wanna believe
Whoa Mona Lisa, you’re guaranteed to run this town Whoa Mona Lisa I’d pay to see you frown
He sense something call it desperation another dollar another day and if she has the proper words to say she’d tell but she’d have nothing left to sell him...
Say what you mean tell me I’m right and let the sun rain down on me give me a sign I wanna believe
Whoa Mona Lisa, you’re guaranteed to run this town Whoa Mona Lisa I’d pay to see you frown
Oh Mona Lisa
Say what you mean tell me I’m right and let the sun rain down on me give me a sign
I wanna believe
Whoa Mona Lisa, you’re guaranteed to run this town Whoa Mona Lisa I’d pay to see you frown
Say what you mean tell me I’m right and let the sun rain down on me give me a sign
I wanna believe
There’s nothing wrong with just a taste of what you paid for....

Whats up with that weekend

2011-01-24T08:22:00.004+08:00

May all d hatred gone and blithe circulate my day ;]. The first day of d week I can't say i have time, darn even on weekend I was dictated by work. (too bad). Journals tried to compel me which end up them reading me. Yesterday d power went out, as for a happiness dummy I just stay like a deadpan in d room, gazing onto d ceiling and start singing as if d world is now have my name written on it. Indeed it was a pathetic Sunday. Well, I hate dat kind of Sunday, I had repetitiously having shower, darn its hot and you noe wen d power went out dat means no fan and all plus nature being too cruel. Not even a hush of wind. So I stayed annoyed with d sunlight torched into my room. I had migrain because its too hot. (ths thing is sensitive to heat). I end up blackout myself. Thats just another story. It was going on for 6 hours and afternoon was horrific :(

Give up? Over My Dead Body

2011-01-21T20:03:00.002+08:00

I was so infected by ths lumpish fever. I had it with smiles and blithe (i hope so). Well, d day started really well, as m on d early errand to faculty. Tonight I'll be here in d room alone since my roomie got eleventh hour call frm her cousins and she went back to her gramps. Kindda odd when u dun have anyone to joke with. (m gonna miss 2 nites not callin her kayak). We shud be on war by now, and she wont stop repeating d shirt issue of day, if she was ever here. She left her teddy for my watch. Well, its an epic eve, with Sandy not replying my text (asking her to go for dinner). Think she's asleep tho, plus its a tiring week. I wish I cud jump on my bed and start snoring for d god sake. However, to get a piece of peace in ur head, dats difficult. Especially wen ur tummy growled like a hunger wolf T_T . (I did d best I could do to survive tonight). Thts not d beauty of being lazy. When was my meal exactly, oh yeah d afternoon prosperity burger at Mc D.

The lucky Friday dat we're talking about is d day with seriously human resource system class. Pardon me wen I have to stay alive for 5 hours. Holy cow! The class tht only appear twice a month really tiring. What on earth were they talking bout database and all. I need a break, tmrow is Saturday, perfect i need a nap before i cud start being a machine again. Fuhhhh. What is exactly going on in my life, I nvr knw myself. Guess I need to recharge battery for next week, shud be a busy week..Where was I again? Oh okay, the HRIS class..its grouping day!!!!i hate diz i hate diz, really freaking hate ths :( ths is my final sem, i dun wanna be in a team dat have trouble makers, hmm lucky I got on d boat wiv martha and ding ling, oh my savior. hope diz things work well, i cannot afford getting low marks, cuz m telling u ths is my final semester. Anything can pull my heart out. Fuhh~ chill okay chill,,i can do ths, i have to work more,, m not giving up on the last check point. Giving up?Over my dead body. I will nvr ever ever ever give up.

Speaking bout give-up, I'm on my way on pilot test :) shud be finishing soon. Thesis really killing me. Part 2 pls dun hell trouble me :(. Fighting! (too much korean influence). Wont give up, cuz i hate seeing myself being a coward who gives up. There's always a way out, unless u dun wanna put an effort on it, unless u dun wanna try a bit harder. There's no definition of give-up.

Precious Manner

2011-01-20T17:16:00.000+08:00

Hey pretty ugly, its been awhile since my lappy went upside down and got a high fever. (seriously) Whats up today, I had nothing much to brag because wen d idea of crap keep on coming but d technology get stuck then u feel sucks. (excuse me for my vocabulary). Its just early of d semester and m beggining to freak out over d invisible workload. I dun wanna go beyond d work stuff, as in time for myself. Well, i wonder if d time is capable to spare sum time for me and myself. Ths week has been so tiring and extreme no-perks. The moment u wake up in d morning d questions dat blow ur mind is dat “do i have to wake up?”. I’ve been running outta energy. I had 2 hectic day with no time to give a peek onto my bed. Class schedule, softskills, student board things; those make me worn out. Most of d time my energy been drained out for sum educational stuff. (i think i just poped a neuron by thinking of these).

Here come the after 2 things, when i think dat suppose to be my free time, ok ths is not exciting anymore,its like m flipping a chunky book which i nvr knw how many page are they until u stop flipping. (never ends). Oh yeah not to mention I have issues being nice with boys. Its either it get me nervous or fire up in rage (u noe like a volcano). Obviously I have issues to talk about regarding boys manner. I’m not being prejudice & discrimination mental. (neither). I’m not gonna waste my time scolding ppl, cuz i juz find dat my life is so precious and I dun have time for lame things (honestly). I’m just pissed wiv few of parasites dat never get it tho i’ve been draining saliva to get rid of it. (i can die with hatred). How cud u be so annoying at someone else page. Ths specific individuals (plural) really pissed me off. I accidently replied a comment with “fuck!”..come on, seriously, whoever get me pissed, they shud be sorry.

I’ve been repeating diz line “m on final semester” for more than dozens of times ryte,trust me being a final sem student is very depressing! When i get depress i tend to read alot. Its either i have internal conflict and get mixup i nvr noe myself. And yeah, i was hoping dat my friend will text me cuz i tot he vanish sumwhere on earth. Its not like m gonna kill him anyway. Okay now i got head ache. Ths is really “luahan perasaan” damn it.

Format Lappy

2011-01-18T13:59:00.001+08:00

Feel like say m sorry..hahah..anyway..gotta run for smth..i need to format my lappy :)

Lost prince in shining armor?hahaha..

2011-01-17T16:08:00.003+08:00

So tht my dream will come true :)..nay i dun really like d idea of dat, but lately i was having bad dreams bout pain,dunno wth was dat suppose to mean, gotta be cautious tho. Man, i feel like my brain is going to fall off just by thinking bout nonsense stuff. Today! I wear "baju kurung" yeay..monday is supposed to be formal day, so here i am,, tht is one of my 2011 resolution (ahah!wait till d day i went hectic and start to run in jeans again :P). I just browse my page and find two little bugs spamming my wall wiv d word "huh?" okay it takes 15 minutes to delete notifications and d stupid wall post!!!!arghhh,,i can go vile!gimme a break, what does "huh" means??i feel like my day had been sacked by a lumpish viruses..those two ppl r going to pay!!damn,,every status i posted come out wiv d commnt "huh"..m beginning to worry whether dey had sum brain damage or smth,,

Today's class is quite fun! we have sum sortta mini presentation on work life balance, dat was done after a movie "the click" starring Adam Sandler. We need work life balance but dun get mixup cuzzzz..balance doesnt mean 50% life and 50% work..no doubt,it suppose to be an integration between both. Yeah i realized now dat i need diz thing cuz i can avoid inter/intra role conflict as i go on being an HR . I mean i dun wanna get tangle up in circumstances dat cost me to have an overlapping role. Big word control emotion. That is totally a hard thing to do..how i wish therz somebody who is patience enav to handle me..so dat they wont complaint,,"can u stop being emotional" hmmm..okay there's no such as thing as that. (no one will be dat kind i noe..lol)

Seems like its not going to rain today (not just yet) i miss basketball really,i wanna smash the ball hard!as hard as i can!throw it in d ring and scream "yeah!!!!!dats awesome". Anyone??wanna play wimme..???wish ther'll be d lost prince in shining armor come and play basketball wimme (semoga doa nina jd kenyataan..hahha)...okay now m talking nonsense! :D daaa..

Merry merry miss independent

2011-01-16T18:27:00.003+08:00

So happy so happy..why d hell m so happy after reading 4 article with d entire pages full of highlighter and color..haha..diz morning i went to library to print out 48 page journal article. Whoa, its damn freezing outthere and of course almost died bcoz of my blood vein on winter blocked..hahha..its indeed a useful sunday for me..i walk alone to busstop and caught d keledekz..okay i have no problem wiv em so i juz ignore or else it going to be duck and chicken debate..(u noe what i mean anyway). I dunno waiting for bus can make ur backbone cracked,haha..i got back ache because of bus stop steel seat..its kinda weird but i bet its architect stuff,i dun wanna care, simply not my cup of tea. Burblesque wil be out tmrow (excuse me for the type if therz any). I booted up my lappy while ago and taken aback because those parasite had contaminate my page..jeez,,brandee & beb deth..they shud cross d styx !!believe me d only vocab dat ever exist for em is NONSENSE..now m getting insane with dat absurd word..haha,,feel like cramming their mouth with a pile of wasabi :D btw they're d coolest friend i ever hangout despite of their annoyance and absurdity..tchh..(dats makin me wanna cut them into pieces and grind em i d mixer). Being miss independent is so awesome anyway!!self-sufficient :) grrrr.its chilly i better get my winter glove now..see ya :)

Behind The Scene

2011-01-16T11:53:00.002+08:00

Even though I got d lines rehearsed
A picture only paints a thousand words
Things dun always what they see
You're only seeing apart of me
There's more than u could ever know
Behind the scenes
I'm incomplete and I'm undone
But I suppose like everyone
There's so much that going on
Behind the scene

This is the moment
It’s on the line
Which way you gonna fall?
In the middle between
Wrong and right
Are you who you always said you would be?
With a sinking feeling in your chest
Always waiting for someone else to fix you
Tell me when did you forget

Loreal Paris ELSEVE smooth intense

2011-01-16T11:16:00.006+08:00

The last time m using herbal essence think it smells good rather than d effect. I was using d long term relationship one (pfffttt...why the hell it has such name on its red bottle). So I changed! been using Loreal for A YEAR ALREADY,, i really need a hair cut but i tell u what ths is d best hair treatment product. Oh, m using d orange color one, avoid puffiness,,so avoid being stupid wavy again..However, d shampoo doesnt work well without d conditioner. I used to hate loreal because it smells chemical BUT i was wrong . Tht was probably years ago,,I dun really remember d price..but d conditioner is rm15, d shampoo is around rm 18, d mask is rm 20++ and d serum is rm36..but it worth buying :)

Rain Pours

2011-01-15T05:55:00.003+08:00

Its a relieved~fuhh..finally somebody come over to fix d shower yesterday. Means, i can sleep well without a second thought being haunted by d water flowing as if therz a fire next door (dats d dillema of living next to d shower room and toilet). You wud noe anyone coming in for showing for d god sake! Its 5.58 in d morning, swear to god its not as well as i thought. Its freezing cold, as if my skull had been frozen to death after slaughtering. Still talking bout dat shower, suprise!!!d water flow like a blind machine gun. Earlier diz month I thought of taking back a few buck frm my college apartment fees because we have to shower using sink's pipe. (of course, all d curse coming out esp. on eleventh hour). I wonder why these days it keeps on raining. Days and nights,,d sky eventually get a big hole and der goes d raindrops..(absurd theory).

By chance do u guys love rains? Its not dat bad tho xcept it gives u flood, thats it but i love rains. It has been one of my obstinate manner,because my parents used to forbid me goin out for rain-shower thing. I always catch cold if i were to get into d rain. I even had 39 degree celcius temperature. (how sad an airhead asshole like me defeated by rain). It has been d second week of semester already, despite of my final semester its probably my final time being here as a student. Here comes d epic mments..ths university teach me smth and leave me smth dat i can carry back to my home soon. Ahhh i hate being so epic!shud be ready cuz HR is d position dat ppl hate d most. So i need to be a lil indifferent..dats all for diz morning.ahhh, i started feel hungry again.

Such as thing as Love?

2011-01-14T20:52:00.005+08:00

"i miss you till the point of death"
First, why wud an arrogant like me missing smbdy who left for such uncertainty he created. In fact asking me to stop loving. Ths was an old story, probably get rusty over time. (but not for me) You ppl you dunno how my life had been going on those day. Yeah, I still keeping my pride, tho I wish I cud grab his collar and scream on him. "Do u noe how much i went mental?do u noe dat i love u damn much!!do u get me?do u hear what i'm saying??". Afterall it was just voices inside my brain. I can't even get a chance to see him nor talk to him tho i really wanna stand before him and make him see what m I. I ever asked a question, i wanna make sure, whether its really true ppl can fall in love with attitude. Also, I wanna reassure dat relationship can get interference with silly things.

Situation: There's a girl you bumped at the mall with her friends,she talk English but she's a malay,she gotta awkward chesty expression (in other word arrogant). What do you think?

It served right on my nose because d answer was, "no feeling,not my taste". It was rather laughable than shedding tears. So, that day I got all the answers that I wanted so much. There is no such as thing as falling in love with attitude. If something dat look ugly before the crowd, it can never turn into something pretty. (i overlooked on love). If d whole world said they hate it, its impossible there's only one person being so kind of liking dat attitude. I was dissapointed because d girl in d situation was me. Even more being dismay because of d person who answers it. So now, I don't ever believe anything regarding attitude-love whatsoever. (don't ever said I'm different because of my attitude cuz I hate it,really hate it and don't ever tell me m just d same with othrs either).Afterall, I will never give up my appaling manner. For me now d test of sincerity is when u can accept someone the way dey are regardless of wht shape they're in. Then only u feel happy about it. I tell u what d feel of acceptance is more precious than winning a Grammy because when u sincere, u'll still be happy no matter what happen.

think m just goin insane by never stop loving u
i hate u i hate u i hate u

Moody

2011-01-13T06:51:00.002+08:00

Time passed by and I dunno what m I doing. Again, I was drown in confusion. Is ths really d thing dat I wanna do?? Its like eating apple with a taste of pineapple. I'm not in a mood of talking to anyone anyway. Btw its hot in here, very hot and i hate being in such temperature. I wish m in africa now, sleeping with zebras and d giraffe. Oh yeah its morning here and great I have class in d next one hour. Outside, its raining cats and dogs..The coldness??I dun feel any~Morning class really pissed my mood off! I dun like seeing moody ppl, its like seeing a maple tree walking. I'm trying to cntrol every bitch inside me so that i'm not going to be moody before my friends cuz it looks ridiculous tho. C'mon, u shud do tht too, we're in such adult age and we still prone to such manner. (too much). Well, sorry to say, m not born to sweet-talk othrs. (all d best if u're expecting anything frm me). The only person dat I ever sweet-talk is my buddy (bueno). Arghhh ths is ridiculous y wud i sweet-talk ppl!!anyway, d class is at 8..i better lift my ass off d bed before running late. Really hate wen i had to rush over for showers and ol..For d god sake I smell like steamboat!!!i need a proper smell before going to class, i was having a dinner at d steamboat last nite and sneaking into cinema for "season of the witch". I was totally famished that i cudn't get up frm my seat. Then, I watch those creepy sartan thng in cinema wiv a beef like smell..hahha..its quite awesome.. seems like our operation had started!next stop..i dunno..lol..gotta go..cheers :)

Pushing The Car

2011-01-10T06:52:00.003+08:00

Yesterday especially, I've done couple of things dat can be considered as insane. It was raining right after we marched into d Saberkas building (its a gadget heaven). I was looking for a new external :) (samsung external). It was hectic cuz we're goin all over d place, i obviously dun wanna accept any kind of brand xcept SAMSUNG!!haha..whatta fuss. Finally i managed to get rid of d hourly empty search by buying d green one!(of course still samsung) tell u what if therz a pendrive, a mouse dat produced by samsung i'll be d first buying those crap..It took 10 mintes for d guy to get my external in his store room..So d left over time was taken to stare at d glassy box with HTC Mozart in it :) its cute but it cost 2k smth.. :(..ths is d best part, d tragedy in car park..d car acted out!!shit~its raining outside so we called mimie's bf, and we have to what???push d car and try boot up d engine??hahha..ths is d best joke ever if therz one. So me wiv my bony hands,pushing hard and ther goes d bitchy car..dat was hilarious, me tim aleng and mie pushing d car down..kindda thing dat we nvr come across before,, (the bolehla guy who own d car mmg nk kena tembak)..next stop we're goin to sp and spend a few hours of the one at spring..it was so unfortunate..i already got one ELLE shoe (one i bought during my hols) now what???..(my dad will kill me) hahaha..sorry but i have to buy one flat shoe,,its better den i bought sum boyish nike sneaker..ths shud be better,,i'm so freakin wash-out when d clock strike 8...my legs were ol worn-out..so we're off to college..dat was a hectic day,,

Clone Thing

2011-01-09T08:39:00.004+08:00

Fuyooo!!ths is cool+weird :D i ad been seeing ths thing quite sumtime, since d semester opened. First thing i tot its nothing but when its repetitiously facing it,,i think m in a clone world, first i saw a guy who work in my college cafeteria,duhhh,he just a cafe boy but he look exactly like "tht ol evil". I'm really going mental as if i wanna bury him alive!wring his head off!twist his neck! gosh,then i remind masev he just a cafe boy whose innocent and probably don't even noe therz a mental person who hate him because of his face. I was having a schizo moments (i'm going to kill u..said a voice in my head..haha). A few days later, i almost hye a girl dat look exactly like Bill (my fren) gosh..ths is insane..why wud in a name of god i have to see all of these. I can go vile with all this clone thing. Not long after that, I saw someone dat look like my buddy (kentang)..oh my god, ths even more insane!!!its like seeing a ghost!!

I.Basketball.Food

2011-01-08T17:52:00.004+08:00

" and i dunno how to be fun when i'm not, cuz i dunno how to make a feeling stop"
"thought u shud noe i try my best to let go of u"

Its a bit epic isn't it? A caveat for my brain before I went upside down on weekend. Do not get close with mushy poetry!I have no idea what to do on weekend? Lets see, if i were to play basketball, d fact is dat i'll get hell washed-out and probably spending sum 12 hours to sleep. I havent touch d ball for quite sumtime. My bony hand probably going ricket :D and my legs are getting feeble for games. I started to miss all d fun dat i had back ther (when i was still perky and insane). Its not dat i loose my interest but I have a sardine-box timetable. I really need somebody who can spend time wimme and play this crap out. When we get tired we stop and starts talking bout gadgets and new stuff. Well, seems like i dun have a buddy dat will talk gibberish bout PSP mobile and how cool mozart is. I still love the game so much. The best thing bout basketball is when u can do flips or dunk. It makes u feel like d world is yours. Then u wont stop throwing,bumping and anything dat ppl do in court. It was fun. I used to rip my pants and my knee (dat was a must,haha). Basketball can change life and can even give life. Sports always..always make relieved my messy brain. When i had smth unsolicited like last minute assignment date changed or anything, basketball give me fair time to let go all d burden in my head. When I step on it, i forget everything, I was d wildest person u ever seen. I'm so mental. Lately i kindda lost, d ball was my remedy but now i'm starting to miss it. Very badly. I used to be a dumb asshole and lumpish,haha..i even put sum serious feature, for me to have a guy i need to find somebody who play basketball..haha,d idea was to date on court,,stupid ain't it,so if ppl asked me why m i so keen and so frenzy on diz basketball thing, simple...BASKETBALL is my food for life..pathetic answer,tell u what in court u're free to scream,yell, throw,bumping,purposely knocking someone down..dats d idea,Well m starving now,see ya ppl.. (i owez have d unfinished lines ryte) haha..till then

Unconditional Hair

2011-01-08T11:06:00.002+08:00

Go bald! Go bald! Have u ever feel miserable when ur hair grow unconditionally like mental rapunzel? I never had a banshee hair before! So, one line "I need a haircut". After awhile, I thought keeping a hair wud be so great (with help frm my Loreal) but what happen was when u wake up in d morning d 48 hours antifrizz was absolute futile. (as if like i was on d bungee jumping last nite). One weird thing bout ths hair is dat, whatever design u have on d first place wen it grow it will always have a V shape!weird hair!(was wondering whether my hair got some spirit live inside). Probably diz is because of my lumpish laziness..hmmm..u see having a complete hair treatment will make u spend more time in d shower..haha, I skipped d mask and d serum, (perhaps dats d problem). Right now I want a hair like d step up 2 girl..jeez (if dat so i cant have a hair cut) !!Long hair is like "too much stories" think about how may hair do u have..i think hair is so much like life. urghh..m so freaking starving now,gotta go 1st,need a shower!ahaha!

Firefly

2011-01-08T07:32:00.003+08:00

I booted up my lappy and straightaway log-on to MalaysiaAirlines website. I was planning on going back to KL for this Chinese New Year :] I heard d new thng called Firefly coming to town, so jst my luck! its d best price i ever deal with, i mean for standard service, with 15 kg max baggage but extra 5 kg with sum allowance. Not to mention d meal :PIts only MYR 24 AND MYR 68..hey ppl grab d deal fast. However m still in doubt whether i shud fly back or not..hoho..good day everyone

Bewildered

2011-01-05T13:22:00.002+08:00

Ths morning I was bewildered just by looking out d window. Rise and shine! The sunlight torch out straight to my pupil and i feel like having cornea surgery. (my bad). It took 7 minutes to return into normal condition. What a nice start and here come d best part,the shower wasn't workin. For the past month the only thing dat could probably pissed me off in the morn was d shower cap suddenly on drought. As a human being dat care so much bout hygiene, its rational for me to lodge a complain on diz. (duhh,its early of d semester). They can't shit me cuz ths is not sweden where on winter d wter probably freezing,so its not flowing thru d shower. Ths is really getting on my nerve. I may not an engineering student,but such thng shud never exist after a month hols. What r they doing anyway??were dey putting PVDF pipe underground??(urghh). I have to downstairs to do my business. Tht cost me 2 minutes to go downstairs and 3 minutes to climb up again.(ths is barbaric)
Did i ever told you ppl morning class usually end up awesome?nope rite,dat was probably a phantom me. Strategic Human Resource Development class today got something dat really something. Now only I know dat I'm actually graduating as a specialist in HRD. Pathetic ain't it?Now only u noe who u are besides discovering my personality and I had done tons of personality whatsoever test. It's really mental!Today is my lucky day :( I was d first one pointed to answer a question. (excuse me for my lolypop on my left hand and microphone on d right). However, its not a hectic day cuz m still here talking nonsense(gibberish is my genetic),since for d entire week I dun even have evening class. (epic!).

Word Smart::Music Smart

2011-01-04T11:25:00.003+08:00

Alright people, what I learnt tday was smth awesome. Its somethg to do with personality and work life balance. Well its a new subject (again,we're d guinea pig here). After several minutes I discovered dat my personality wud be:

WORD SMART
MUSIC SMART

No doubt m a word smart cuz i love to read!reli love books and reading things. You see,sometimes wen u flip d front cover u can be so curious how d ending wud be. I'm sortta dat type. Besides nobody read books to get to d middle. I love thesaurus plus a portable dictionary. I noe its kindda weird but dats what happen. Music smart of course!everything about me can be define in musics. One of d song dat probably describe me (Francesca Battistelli-Free to be me). So that was it!!my second day of class. Ahh m gonna miss ol of this after d may end soon.

Stupid Girl: ‘Perempuan gedik yang very the suka mintak duit lelaki’ PANAS!!

2011-01-04T11:20:00.000+08:00

First of all this is version yg a bit kasar. I dun have niat to point out to anyone but it’s a lesson for everyone. This is very general okay. Aku tak kisah orang nak ban aku but if its truth nak buat camne.

Simple je topic ni, perempuan gedik yang very the suka mintak duit lelaki. Kalau dah married takpe. But in this world rarely la I jumpa org yg dah married buat “ what’s yours is mine” biasela, before marriage whatever pn yours wen dah married “what yours remain yours, mine is mine”. I met a lot of people in this world. I had travel far away frm home and see gelagat manusia yg sometimes merepek mcm kerepek yg direpek. I’m so allergic ble ade org kutuk my own kind. Which is obviously the XX gene. But to deny the points yg dilontarkan cm lempar cakera tu, I can’t because definitely I lost my case. Perempuan gedik yg suka mintak duit lelaki ni mmg exist. I dun understand why the hell nk buat cmtu. Mintak duit Kalau nk buat ubat cancer or sakit jantung ke xpe gak. Ni nak buat shopping, travel and so on..Ridiculous betol. Please la ak bukan nk mengutuk tapi Kalau dah bajet hotttt mcm hot dog kat Kyros Kebab memang tak tahan. Dahla bajet hottt mntk duit kt bf plak tu. Untuk ape ko jadi hot gle kalo mntk duit bf ko at the end of the day bf ko tu bley bankrupt. Tak pn bf ko tu pg carik pmpuan lain and revenge kt org lain. Shucks!. Dalam dunia ni byk cara dari bajet hot. Ak tau ko hot tapi ak ni dah travel byk and ak jmpe byk kawan2 yg mmg glerrrr hotttt dr ko tp perangai diorg senonoh arah. Honestly, I love stalking cute and pretty girls. Especially yg berakhlak mulia. Sgt ske tgok. I’m not homosexual okay, but I just love watching them. Paling penting diorg tu tak mntak duit bf diorg and sgt sopan santun (yg original).

In this world we dun have to be such parasite okay. We live in the round shape earth, trust me what goes around comes around. I dun give a shit seriously. Kalau ak jmpe pmpuan cmni kat tepi jalan mmg aku tampar. Kalau my brother’s gf mcm tu mmg aku ugut bunuh pmpuan tu. Gile duit sangat. Bukannye mati pn kalau xshopping kat zara,MNG, and so on..Dahtu nk plak holiday kat aussie la,Sweden la, medan la, bali la, Singapore la..pkai la duit sendiri. Semua nk mntk bf, gle kentang la. Lg satu ske sgt fake fake fake…shape, perangai nmpak okay. Kat blakang perangai cm hape je. Alahai kalau nk bgn dr tmpat duduk pn nk cover ape kes!!!Aku yg pmpuan ni pn lemau tgok. Kalau nk dudk just sit.If you wanna do it just do it. Faking yourself in public doesn’t make u a diva. Please.Not To Me! This type of girl will never learn to be a –never-spoiled-child-.So learn a lesson la.

New Songs

2011-01-04T07:23:00.003+08:00

First of all, hello virtual world!urghhh i got d same freaky dream again. I wonder how my brain work after i lie on bed. Its the fourth day of two zero eleven (like spelling things). Here come the latest playlist:

1. Gone- Nelly ft Kelly Rowland
2.Avril Lavinge-What The Hell
3.The Band Perry-You Lie
4.Fucking Perfect-Pink
5.Speechless-Alicia Keys ft Eve
6.Liv Tonight-Nelly ft Keri Hilson
7.Six foot seven foot-Lil Wayne
8.Kesha-Blow

Note dat sum of d song are not in Malaysia yet (:

Cool Mozart

2011-01-03T20:44:00.003+08:00

HTC 7 MOZART

Weight:130 grams (4.59 ounces) with battery
Type: Touch screen with pinch-to-zoom capability
Size: 3.7 inches
Resolution: 480 x 800 WVGA
Camera:8 megapixel color camera::Auto focus and Xenon flash::Built-in scenes include candlelight, landscape, and portrait match the environment of your subject
Platform⁵:Windows® Phone OS 7
Battery type: Rechargeable Lithium-ion battery polymer or Lithium-ion battery
Capacity: 1300 mAh
Talk time:WCDMA:: Up to 330 mins--GSM: Up to 405 mins
Standby time³:WCDMA: Up to 435 hours--GSM: Up to 360 hours
Internal storage: 8 GB
ROM: 512 MB
RAM: 576 MB

Self-Fix

2011-01-03T15:59:00.004+08:00

WHY THERE'S A NEED TO CHANGE?

New Year Appearance:

Mission 2011:
Sun and Lemonade [freedom]
Wrap 2010 in a box
Eternal Breakthrough
Getting Job

I decided:
Wrist Band dat look like an ancient amulet
Musics Addiction
Rugby fanatic
Favourite Smell
Kinder Bueno
ahhhhhhhhhhh,,,its a long list i decided to be myself!
who cares a girl talk in english because she loves it, and it has nothing to do with other ppl
who cares a girl do something silly, because that herself
who cares a girl who being an airhead..i like being myself..a change will take thousand years to be perfect and i dont need perfections.

WHAT ON ME THAT WON'T CHANGE?

New Year. Tragedy

2011-01-03T12:39:00.003+08:00

I've been wanting to write alot of stuff beforehand but since I got some chaos happening around so ths is d only chance I sit by my lappy with total power over ths blog. Happy New Year!!Two zero eleven dat I anticipate to be d great challenge and massive responsibility. I have 4 month to go before I drop my status as a student. Ths probably the thng dat freaking me out. How m I going to survive outthere. (scary). BTW my new year celebration started wiv the engagement. My cousin's engagement. It was fun but not that fun (when it come to be in a circle wiv d elders). I declare the most allergic question of the year to be : Are you seeing someone? Damn, in a simple word, are u dating someone now, do you have boyfriend. Gosh,why wud I answer that anyway. Think I shall use a tag name with words [I'm not 25. A bacheloratte. Manner: Fail. Note: Stay away frm me]. I'm no longer affected with the word "arrogant" because thats what d elders keep telling me to stop being one. They said I chased ppl away because m a airhead and arrogant freak. Ths is ridiculous! It doesnt matter how pathetic or nosy or whatever it takes a person can be, thts not a point. The point is those ppl ran away. Simple, they're not sincere enav if they can't accept u the way you are. Thts gonna end up both ppl doing ridiculous thng and making ridiculous decision. So, that's gonna be the most hated question of d year!Finish d argument bout tht,let's just skip d never ending conclusion.
Today! is my 1st day of class and last nite was my 1st day in college. Of course u wont be able to see alot of human being hanging out under apartment building cuz some of em are still in vacation mode. It was d freakiest nite ever!Bad nightmare reli kills me :O Anyone here can explain how on earth your dream turn up to be horrible. I can feel d pain after I was shaken abruptly by dat thng. Jeez, pls no more such dream! So, today d class officially start wiv Mdm Dyg Kartini :) However before goin to class shower was d most difficult thng! It was indeed cold like Europe winter season!!!!and suprisely!!!thnk i' HOMESICK!

:( what an errand.

2010-12-21T08:01:00.004+08:00

I went to Bukit Bintang yesterday. I've been in super depression and even depressed wen I came across samsung galaxy s :( I want......I was looking for executive's apparel which i managed to find one piece. I'm on green fever (new green shirt). I was forced to KL, now i'm going insane. I was talking to a sales girl who happen to be sarawakian. Hish, gago jak mk klaka sawak. The crowds reli makes me dizzy and almost hell puke. I'm risked to puke to death because of crowd-sickness syndrome. The most is everywhere is samsung galaxy S!!!! I went through evening rain and prepare for dinner at 8. Away frm my lil misery. Okay non of d activity workin. :(

I'm Sucks

2010-12-21T07:40:00.005+08:00

Good Morning!have u ever feel like been swept away by cyclone and you tried to turn ur world around but nothing changed. This is rather insanity of personal, apparently..For the past few days I've been in total misery with excluded reason in writing. I was on a little mission to study human behaviour and selfishness. Hence, I ended up leaking alot of points and I had no idea how to figure it out everything. I'd rather come out with very clumsy conclusion which is human are all selfish. However, I was wrong when the day somebody advise me wisely and I shud thanked him for opening my eyes for every invisible sights. I was seeing with emotion not my wise brain. I was obviously a total bitch keep on raging around my reckless temper. I really hate my temper (always hating it). Special thanks for reminding me my current irrational state. Ths person is really special that he makes me realize everything around me is functioning. Something that I always abandon whenever I got some serious miserable thinking. Honestly I'm sucks in personal god knows how. I'm glad I still known someone in the world that makes me become wise. I'd like to become someone who will put a thought before actions. I dun wanna make severe decisions dat can destroy my credibility as a human being and future HR. However, my head is still down under extreme misery. I have such lumpish attitude, once u break in u need to keep on walking until u found smth that u need to find.

Result Real :)

2010-12-11T20:42:00.002+08:00

I 'm so hell excited. Of course the result is out :) and awesome!Thanks my almighty! I think I was d last person who login to smp. Its officially yesterday but u noe, i drained my few bucks sending ill-ed text messeges to unimas sms service. Seriously, I did checked my personal detail twice, i tot it was someonelses' account. Correct! its my name on it and my stupid passport pic. (urgh..=D) above of all m so head over heels. Thanks for last minute inspiration and thanks for being a freezing chick for 2 weeks in library, thanks for being such a creepy asshole and sociopath breakdown living thing in that library. Not forgotten thank to my lecturer, the most to miss farida :) finally she gave me A..fheww and Mdm Sheilla as well, next time we'll have an errand a month earlier and bout that level of learning, never mind, i get the point now :). Almost flat, I think I know why and I know how. Another dean list! love u books and everything !

Invisibility Choice

2010-12-09T17:01:00.002+08:00

Sometimes talking too much can make you cry
Sometimes silence can make you die

I prefer invisibility in the choice because
What left in the option were only despair and frustrations

Yes, there's a line to walk thru but the lines was ruined by a fierce tornado
Fogs covered our eyes, so I shall took another road
Where to start? There's no need cuz you already walking (looking at my feet)

Its sunset.Keep walking.I'm through.

Episode 4: Malacca Errand (: [Shopping?Whattaya Think]

2010-12-08T00:28:00.003+08:00

Sunny day here in Malacca, again I was drowned in epic memory. Remembered in one occasion I fell in Malacca Zoo! Well I ripped my knee precisely. I know I got bad chicken legs when I travel around. The journey of obsevation, of course sneaking eyes into some hot Honda City, Black is so elegant honestly. Alright my first car will definitely be Black! we have "ikan bakar" wow yummy!!!i love today errand :) Okay ppl, whattaya think about SHOPPING? I mean as for some girls its their life and death. Discount and sale season are what driving them mad besides hottie. I'm not a shopaholic reli am not, but I know some of d random facts bout girl and shops. you can tell that I'm not a shopping-maniac that runs insane over shimmering gold cards.

So is it true girls, women are those who shud check-in in mental asylum on festive season. WHY?its sale, UP TO 70% . Tell me, I never had this fantastic insanity on grabbing and groping everything I saw in the Mall. Some people who shops alot usually in that kind of group (miss universe-like-girl). That's funny cuz I'm a girl too. However, to defend my own kind, I have no idea how to doubt the burden of proof "see!its 50% off.omg!!" she, the one who say it is a girl. Oryte I know that shopping waste money but, what kind of definition do u give on word shopping? the measurement that u use in shopping. Shopping, basically does not mean we buy the entire store. I think depend on person definition. We can't possibly say shopping is evil. When someone said shopping we choose to turn 180 degree into negative statement. Its just how a person view "shopping". Whether its a verb meaning evil or anythingelse.

Well, the gender issue must be teken into account. I mean, boys love shopping too, regardless of they are metro, retro or whatever -ro they are. One thing I respect over these dark-side of bad "shopping" term, girls will consider bargaining for less price,boys will go for -no matter how expensive they are-.,thats what i think. I prefer to define shopping as something nice and innocent tho..So, taht's all for today, nites!

2010-12-07T14:25:00.003+08:00

"keep telling myself that its not worth it, i already know i don't deserve it"

Episode 3: Cooking-fever [the tomyam and empty rice cooker]

2010-12-07T14:07:00.001+08:00

Think this is the only way that makes me feel like a bit insane and amnesia. “Cooking” I just culdn’t believe it! I went cooking the black pepper beef [1], the seafood tomyam [2], taufu [3], egg-things [4]. Of course no vege!cuz I freaking hate vegetables. I dunno who eat all the crap dat I cooked but the rice cooker was empty : ( somebody takeover the world and eat all the food! Was it dat tasty, I think so..lalala..so the responsible people who finished everything had to go out to buy a dinner. They went back home that afternoon and eat everything. Fhew, that means my cooking wasn’t that bad, its just my lazy cells dominates me. Huahuahua..I’m so not me anymore! I cooked, I did my laundry without somebody screaming at me. I’m so an “ALIEN”. Who am I??Scary tho! The very next day I tried an insane thing, “Fried Black pepper Chicken fillet”

1. All the spices dat u need the most is the black pepper

2. Chicken fillet (that took 30 minutes to clean it using 2 pairs of glove and never stop screaming over the blood!tho it’s a breast part

3. Salt and whatever

4. An egg

5. Flour (the one with spicy flava)

Alright put all the spices on the chicken, shall I said marinate ‘em. Hmm, put some salt so that it taste better. Getcha egg and mix it it with the fillet and those spices earlier. Okay on ur stove and getcha oil hottttt….final stage when ur oil is ready, put it in the flour, please make the flour covered all the fillet and wallah throw it in the frying pan..caution: dun let it black baked crisp. Ish ish ish…

Episode 3 ¾ (flashback): Add Math Tutor

Okay, if its biology, chemistry or even modern math, I can do it. Seriously, those were awesome things but add math. Freaky freaky freaky !

Episode 2 ¾: “Life as a Taxi driver”

2010-12-07T14:05:00.000+08:00

Last nite I gotta a town ride wiv my dad, after he finished his stuff in Jalan Duta. It was late 10.45 p.m. Yeah, nothing much changed in KL since I studied there. Except there’s a new neon light on The Mall (did remind me of my youth, was my playground once). I wonder if inside still d same, especially the Bread Story and the ABC thing. Oh yeah, wonder if the Mc Donald still crammed with our high school student when it’s not holiday. We ride pass thru my old classic school (I guess now, it’s not classic anymore, dey got some Netherland influence in building structure, think it was there since before the independent..since dey got sum of money frm the ministry, they renovate the school. Truthfully, I hate d new look of the school, I hope they dun cut down that Autumn tree !) The car moving thru Jalan Tun Razak to Jalan Parliament and I dunno what Jalan anymore there, I wasn’t the type that memorize the road really well. Here we are at Jalan Pantai Bahru. All the shops were closed. Suddenly I saw a Taxi right next to our car. I saw the clock on my car. Its half past 11 already, these Taxis still wondering around getting passenger. I felt a sudden rush in my head, imagine how hard these people working. They dun care what time it was. While other people lying on their Dunlop pillowand Vono mattress these people drive through the entire town getting money to fill their growling tummy. As if they never care on sleeping either. God bless these people. People are whining on how hard their life is, while they still have house to sleep, they still have night for themselves and they still can afford McDonald and KFC for food. These are not “hard”, these are ungrateful people. Those people outthere there are more that homeless, some with kids waiting at home (starving) waiting for their father to bring something home. They couldn’t afford a fried chicken for everyone; they don’t drink coke, just plain water; cold and plain. I did learn smth. We’re on our ride home, seriously sleepy. Nights ;)

Episode 2 ½: The InterView

2010-12-07T14:04:00.000+08:00

We got major probs because we’re there but we cudn’t find the way in. Hilarious wasn’t it. Alright we’re in, what now? The security guard on d counter never heard of the company,how pathetic until I said C-11. Here we go, at level 11. He was so blur and I speak Malay anyway. I said “Victor Group”. Its futile talking to him so I get mysev upther and a chinese man open the door for me. Yes..yes..m the one who got appointment for internship’s interview. Guess what the CEO is actually the one who gonna interview me..okay relax! Remember this is board interview chapter 5 recruitment in human resource planning, recruitment and selection. Chill2! I obviously make some educated look sitting on the chair while waiting Miss Jasmine to call out my name. Ok, I got serious lup-dup in here and to stay calm I went checking my files (SPM certificate, Matric Transcript, Temporary Transcript, National Chemistry Quiz, Innovation Award, Dean Lists Award, Demonstrator for Biz Math..all checked!!!) fhew…okay he called me in, duhhhhhhhhhhh…I said my internship 10 month! What the hell, ok I’m nervous anyway.LOL. it was only 10 week. Funny, I got a lil chat with a CEO like a professional. What the hell m I doing I talk about current issue and my deep interest in development. Whoa!!!I was a HR manager for a second J He said if I were able to revise the duration of intern he’ll hire me as well !how heaven, now I got serious hatred with my university. Unimas we need to talk! Huhu..

3 hours and this :(

2010-12-01T23:24:00.000+08:00

I drained my 158 buck :,(

Episode 2:Holiday-shopping

2010-12-01T18:45:00.008+08:00

Hye KL, kindda spending my loner time shopping at SOGO just now, erghh I got a fatigue legs :( , tmorrow I got some serious interview, fhew sortta nervous like ALOTSSSSSS !! i wish i still got my luck charm :( if u read ths , TOO BAD CUZ YOU OWEZ BE MY GOOD LUCK CHARM.. btw i got a pair of ELLE shoe. Its extremely hard to make a choice. Plus its raining, jeez walking around like a lone ranger. I'm so tired and so nervous for tmrow occassion. just kill me wiv a dagger please oh please. I see sogo had changed eversince i graduated frm matric, i had no time to
walk around, keep on hanging out at my hometown. Its been a long time. Btw stop the epic things, WHO LOVES TANGLE UP RAPUNZEL????lets watch!!!huhu,,oryte as i promise m gonna post some of my kitchen horrific..haha..btw one last thing~ Hey ppl outther i gotta question, if u miss someone like crazy but u dun wanna say it till d day u die, what shud u do so that he knows??greathumbpin =,<

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Episode 1: Holiday

2010-11-28T14:51:00.003+08:00

Its holiday everyone (fer a malaysian student like me its heaven). I havent got any 4 weeks holiday eversince my second year. It was obviously torturing me. i went half frenzy treating my mom kitchen, woaaa,, i dunno what had gone into my mind because for the past few hours i just thinking about cooking :) Unfortunately my bluetooth seemed not workin now so i gotta postpone my activities report in diz bloggie :) i made an awesome pudding, fruttie and i sneak into my refrigerator to find a nice cold choco Walls icecream. I dip my spoon over it of course. The pudding taste good, not bad for a beginner , i noe the presentation was bad because I got some serious probs on cutting it, my lil bro runaway wiv the whole thing because it taste good (pffftttt perasan sudehh)..then..i made carbonara wiv peas and basil sprinkle..:)) this is my favs, so far dats all my stuff, we need to keep busy..HOWEVER!!!the best thing is my daddy bought like 3 dozen of novels..the 38 buck novel each..and m gonna snap my pics wiv all of it..is sufficient for my entire holiday i guess..seriously 3 dozens, i merely suffocate frm excitement urgency..I love the holiday this time . I have a great time on my own, wiv my lil bro and everyone at home. I just love the holiday!Yeay..tho m kindda .... but nvr mind that's not taken into account,just get mysev happy oryte, u too people, be happy outthere :)

sigh

2010-11-25T19:08:00.002+08:00

If u listen to me talk to me. If u sense my feels please dun let it burn. Occasionally trying some cognition with tammy. This thing really stiff and mute. Talk to me, anyone just talk, talk anything dat can make me sleep with smile, talk about something dat u really want to talk about. Just keep talking and I'll do d listening. Anyone? *pufffff.... no sound..just d air around me trying to say smth that i cudnt digest in my brain. What is it wind? Does d news dat bad until u have to blow everything around? Poor d flying papers, poor the hands that pick it up ): I just wanna listen when people. Okay
1. In total depress
2. Please my head is so miserable
3. What is it with today?

I cant figure it out what the hell is wrong. I noe its funeralmood

Helpless

2010-11-25T13:30:00.002+08:00

"Semalaman, terkenangkan dirimu, sanggup ku singkirkan semua, kisah yg lalu...mengapa kau sanggup meninggalkan diriku..."

Feeling so helpless today
Sensing no energy flowing today
Truthfully, I'm lost in my own brain
Where m I
What m I
How m I here

Helpless

My brief explaination on OL

2010-11-25T03:46:00.002+08:00

Swear to god I can't sleep. Alright, lemme digest what I've been read for tmrow's exam. Basically everything about knowledge but 1st u need to understand what is organizational learning, I mean this thing u can't simply memorize because u can end up having "malfunction" neurons. Organization learning is simple, how organization adapt to change, develop new ideas, insights for their development and growth. Ther r several forces dat trigger these OL things. (remember!undertand, dun memorize). Give u an analogy kay, OL is like u going to another continent, in order to adapt and survive u need to learn, if u stay ther like a dead-shell u'll die. Either frm starvation or anything else. Oryte there are 5 learning principles in OL, personal mastery, mental model, shared vision, team learning and system thinking. These 5 principles correlates wiv each other, if u wanna see how it works u'll figure it out in practices and tools chapter. That's just a principle of learning, now moving on to the learning process (i cant believe m doing diz). This is the crucial part but dun forget 5 principle is very fundamental dat u can relates to d processes of learning. 1st, identification. 2nd, Generation/creation. 3rd, diffusion. 4th, integration and 5th, actions. In learning you'll get thru these 5 processes. Identification helps to facilitate d indentifications of noeledge internally and externally by making the internal one visible while accessing external source of new noeledge. Okay look very carefuly this 1st process, it involve all basic 5 principle earlier. I noe its hard to understand. Simply, its actually when u identify whats the problems, whats relevent to ur business. When it comes to generation and creation. This is d core of the process. u need to create the knowledge. Knowledge creation is smth complex dat u cant simply program. When u have more explicit noeledge the chance to dev. new knowledge is high. These matter relates to the 4 cyclical SECI model. You guys need to combine d note in order to understand tho. In knowledge creation it involve 2 famous thing, TACIT + EXPLICIT. haaaaaaaaa...1st understand dulu whats tacit and explicit. Tacit is basically knowledge frm experience while explicit is the facts. Tacit knowledge u cant simply documented, so we need to tranform d thing into explicit, explicit knowledge u can document it...the 4 SECI spiral thing is a CYCLICAL process..starts with SOCIALIZATION(share) -->EXTERNALIZATION(articulate)-->COMBINATION(connect)-->INTERNALIZATION(embody)..
I love diz part cuz i got some analogy for it. This thing is like u wanna find a guy or a girl. 1st, socialization, rember in socialization u share knowledge thru joint xperience. Its like wen u and ur frens going to a party searching for a boy, okay,u wanna find somebody that has what u needed. Same goes to noeledge, the place (ba) for diz phase is party (originating ba). Its a face to face thing. If u wanna noe him of course u approach him and u starts to talk about smth dat u wanna find in common. Moving on to d second phase, externalization, u start seeing each other because he got what u want, u start to meet his frenz, and get to know him deeper. You exchange numbers u text him in ym by 3G or video callin skype. Its dialoguing ba. In this case i use YM as the virtual place for dialogue. For knowledge d example is Lotus Notes, IBM:Team Focus. Then Combination phase, connect explicit knowledge frm diff sources into new systemized knowledge. Okay all info bout him dat u get frm his background, friends, teacher, neighbour and whoever lah, u kindda arrange them, preparing for next stage. In this phase u'll be supported by systemizing ba,indirect interation among ppl in group. If nak senang ingat i assume, i love him, i noe bout him, his frenz and family so indirectly i'm related to them, need to respect his family, his culture, his friends or whatever since i dah collect data dr few source before. Okay next phase is, u planning to get married in internalization. You get married then, whatever data that wujud dlm ur brain u exersize it in exersizing ba..huhu..for example, he dun eat pineapple , so when u cook jgn letak pineapple..oryte..or u wanna prepare smth like a recipe frm his mom, so u assimilates d knoledge time combination dulu2 tu and embodied dat thing. Dun forget bout ART system, simple je art system, its smth dat trigger us to move frm othr learning mode to another mode. For example culture system. If dlm organization, diorg mite foster org culture, brula dpt move to another phase. ART system ni basically dye detect d discrepancy, contohnyela..Best Practice..inside best practice tu u guys have to do diz and dat..so if kat one phase u guys kne fulfill it, nak xnk terpakse la..Example yg Wall Mart tu..dey have scheduled meeting to discuss what happen in operation. Every Friday kalo xsilap. So nk xnk, terpakse la manager go around d floor observing, approaching customers. See kan dye trigger tu. System dye culture of conducting meeting every Friday.. :) Evaluation of Organization Learning, dun be scared kawan2, this is juz a measurement mcm anova tu..haha..u wanna measure OL so u look on its intellectual capital, dlm intellectual capital tu plak ad 3 dimension human, customer and organizational. Actually u guys bleyh measure using performance gak..IC tu just one of the ways. Don't memorize, u guys need to understand what the animal called IC, refers to Dr Dursit talks dat day..but then they say diz IC ni kindda susah sket nk diterima cuz ad little solid foundation, mostly diz thing handled by managers, of course la d process dlm company, diorg yg measure, xmcm OL pnye theories, yg relates dgn psychological, management, social and whatever lg la..dlm chapter 2 yeee..IC ni xde theories sgt..kindda difficult for practitioner to disucc bout it, cuz dey dun have foundation, nk bincang kne ade foundation kalau x cmne nk bincang, pasal ape? xkn tetibe je..how odd la kan..Malas dah nk further explain, tp after knowledge creation tu, diffusion kay, followed by integration and last skali action. Before I slipped away, remember the KOLB learning cycle, very important !!! Oh m so tired !Thats all..

Until the very end. She still LOVE him.

2010-11-25T00:51:00.003+08:00

Closed my eyes, breath as deep as I can, exhale slowly and chant a word "i'm okay". Thats quite a good tips. There's a friend of mine, she loves diz man so much, as much as she couldn't explain herself. Whatever she did, she only envisage him. She look as gay as I cud be now, but, she's like d girl in d song brick by boring brick (paramore). The clock strike 12 and everything she love went away, like ashes. She did things just to make herself not feeling peculiar, just wanna comfort her own heart. (In another word, she lied to herself bout being happy). She tot she was there and he will hold her hand whenever troubles coming, she tot he will get thru everything together with her. She was wrong because, the clock had strike 12 and like evry fairytale, the prince has to leave so she has to wait. She wait and wait until d clock went rusty, her feeling for him will never change. She cried and cried, like d tears almost turn to blood. One day the man dat she loves came and said, stop loving me. But the man does not understand how much she loves him. How much every single day she thinks about him. How much she wants to be beside him. The man doesn't understand, the man leave her. There she was, until now, her love is still for him. The hardest part she learn in love is, its hard to make people understand how much we love them. That's all for today. Wish me luck for exam tmrow :(

LoveHate 2010

2010-11-24T10:07:00.002+08:00

Packing time! tho tmrowI got one last nuisance paper. Well i saw tons of grizzles over d subject tmrow, here tips friends, dun gettcha self miserable, then only u can understand. I've cleaned my closet with d widest smile ever ! :] No one has to remind me anything cuz I always remember, prepare things early ;] yes! going back ! take a bow everyone, diz semester is almost over, here come d final semester ! New Year is on its way, m gonna be as gay as ever. Close the year book and it's time to open a new page ! 2011 ! m just so excited over it. Feel good after such long time leaving this blog, back to the root..its just minus some curse words,,huhu. LOVEHATE 2010 ! I'm just living my life to d fullest :)

Content really contagious- Cheryl Cole -Parachute

2010-11-23T12:00:00.003+08:00

Bubble-brain

2010-11-23T11:13:00.004+08:00

Alright, lets start chewing d fats..It was my very first time going back late frm library. I'm not a grade-grubber okay, went ther to online and finish notes. I can cheers for my last paper diz coming thursday and my plane on d next day :) Quite awful as I'm d only human exist in dat bus-stop and shucks, its dark. I got some serious night blind esp, for right sight. Vision 1020 i guess or even worst. Funny thing, I was glaring at these 2 i dunno what gender r ther, u see trying very hard to do some mental representation in my head. Screw d stingy uni lights. I can't see. Seriously, the bus stop had me apple-up! Chuck d bus comin so late dat I coud not stand d creepy-ness in d air. 1st, its quite isolated, 2nd its dark, 3rd no one ther except me..I started to thik d pitch I shud use to scream hell if anyone or "anything" unpleasant crush over me.."I'm cooked". The bus came 30 minutes after I freak out, for d godsake please be punctual,,jeez these people..d bussie who drive like a funeral car.. :<..my spec went missing, i had to use d old one which totally browned me off..the degree is not equal, dat old rubbish..btw, m being bubble-brain yesterday over sum "Dell" thing.(if u ppl notice d inverted coma, its more den just a noun) Mad-mug session, u see..m getting insane i guess, haha,,oryte forget bout dat lil gossiping, gotta go for real education adventure !

The American Slang. I'm jitterbugging now.

2010-11-22T16:16:00.002+08:00

The American slang 4 inch thick I found in my university library :) 5 words per day keeps ur head insane straightaway :D
1. Lookie-loo - customers who enjoys looking at d merchandise but has no intention to buy it..erghhh..lemme rephrase..its window shopping..duhhh
2. Jive-ass - insincere and unreliable person..
3.Nertz! -expression of frustrations..its kindda dialect for NUTS..
4. Let it lay - forget about it!
5. Shuck - smth nonsense and lil worth ( ohhh whatta shuck!)
Its kindda awesome reading diz book, btw i can tell 97% were ol talking dirty and sex thing. I noe more den enav bout dirty things..hoho..Be back wiv more lunatic slang..lol

Yeay to the world

2010-11-21T11:58:00.004+08:00

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Since I was so obsessed wiv Tulips I kindda have loads of tulip's bouquet collections. I feel awesome everytime I gaze on these fantastic flowers. Omg can't wait fer tulips sale next year i supposed. Ahhh, its still way along day to go..I remember d last time dey had SALE..in JJ, Mid, KLCC..gosh i was there buying one piece of it..1st its fer mother's day apparently i was too greedy mysev..weeee..I feel relieved now cuz i dun have to feel d bipolar sickness in my head. I have 2 more paper to go before flyin back!I wanna do evrything! Every single thing dat i missed doing it wen I was on that long jet plane going nowher..:) Yeay to d world !

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2010-11-21T11:57:00.001+08:00

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2010-11-21T11:50:00.000+08:00

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Retarded !!

2010-11-21T10:45:00.002+08:00

You guys ever come across d word "stupid retarded" ryte. Oryte, five minutes ago I'm here to get rid of my scattered brain. Expecting silence so dat I can meditate until i feel like my eyeball is going off. However, the 5 minutes was over and now i feel like i wanna eat people ALIVE. For the god sake i ever come across d word stupid retarded, but i nvr come across d one who posess such lunatic trait. How unfortunate he lives in d world of idiocy and pathetic. I was here to study and of course checkin out sum business around my site. This guy, i dun even noe who d bloody hell he is, and he is so fucking idiot. Lemme spell d word I D I O T...gosh,he was playing his music player as if this library is his room. You bodoh ka apa?You sik tauk ka diz is library?You buta ka org mok study?You sik tauk baca peraturan library ka? Erghhhh...m so annoyed. Now changing my place..dahla on lagu malay merepek. Gotta be smth wrong dgn otak dia..eeeeee...ade jugak org cmtu kt dunia ni!affecting others as if u own diz world..cmon la , get a value.

Education Exorcism

2010-11-20T14:54:00.002+08:00

Yeah, its been a while, I was running d errand for Eid's Adha. Finally, sigh of relieved! I already get rid of those FYP..yeay! now praying time (plez A plez plez)..Since it quite sometime, i dunno what to brag here, jeez afew minutes ago all were here in my head..now m clueless, Oh yeah i got 6 days to go before flying back home :) cheers..(talking bout loosing my decipher m getting annoyed)..cmon ppl diz is library not starbuck..jeez..btw i sit in a small piece table in diz library..while ppl enjoying weekend i hav to stuck here :,( reading!! hmm..never mind then, oh man diz couple next to me, can dey slow down..why not just using microphone? if u guys really want me to listen to ur wishy washy discussion..erghh..whatever ppl, how unfortunate..i lost my spec, my earphone dysfunction! life is so hard anyway!till den, wen i got some hot issues to talk about..daa~

Dream Phone

2010-11-11T11:13:00.002+08:00

Omg talking bout new item!!I immediately fallinluv wiv diz "thing". I was on a walk few days ago wiv my girls. Since my rommie get her adapter burnt so we went to some computer shops. Well, she really need a new adapter! Imagine I was in d room and tada!!! I was nearly get electric shock cuz her adapter smells like a burning underwear! So, we went there, walking around, wen I stopped on a mobile shop I saw "HIM". *him -name after my handsome samsung fon! He was so adorable!!!Landing flat under dat glass thingy next to iphone 4. Jeez, I reli wanna diz thing. D feature mite be similar to iphone but samsung got extra hottttttt temptation over me. Samsung defintely win over iphone. "Wicked"..My dream phone. Samsung galaxy S..too bad, its 2k.. T_T..

Never giveup in life

2010-11-11T10:04:00.002+08:00

Oh yes, morning! as usual get up wif a cup of nescaffe and get rid of diz lazy cells. Currently m sitting in a frozen building so called, CAIS. * can't even pronounce d full name of it, basically its a "library". Pffft of course, who wouldn't noe a library. I've been staying like zombie for 24 hours. Congratulations, this is one of d academic item. I'm so tired & sleepy. But then, just chill alright. Lucky no more post in my facebook dat I feel like barfing frm distance and pull my hair til I go bald. Seriously..burghhh.. gonna block dat person or remove frm friend list if dat person kindly bother me again wiv such lunatic whatever.. I was juz on a rare thinking. I mean like, I wanna be matured and decide d things dat I suppose to do and don't. Keep on reading people, you'll get what I'm trying to say. Maybe I was dat 17 years old girl, but dat was years ago. I'm all grown up and in university even. I am totally on a different plane now. So, here I am. I got plan for future, I got massive desire on things dat I like to do. I wanna be somebody dat I cud proud being one in d future. I wanna smile in my late 50s wen i think about what have I done in my life. I don't mind d bitter part cuz those teach me some big deal. You people outthere shud do d same too. For diz entire week I think I found what I really wanted do. I really wanna keep telling people how proud I am being my own self. Vices, flaws its just a matter of perspective. Never give up in life :) !! If u happy just let it all out, if u wanna cry just cry as much as you want and wipe it all off and smile to d world. We've travel diz far in diz life continent, so, get full use of it. Cheers. Till d next post,, I gotta cont my notes :D

Get Rid Of It. Shit.

2010-11-10T11:04:00.004+08:00

I dunno how to start with, but those just so annoying!Cmon, m not in a mood of being nice so I won't. Stop being like a childish while you're all grown up. People might think in a different way, dats it, anymore annoying post m gonna block diz person (in a sense u better stop contaminating my socialization site)..damn it. I got emotional issue, so back off. If u noe you're XY gene. That sounds pretty harsh but really, its rather insane!!! I don't wanna be nice to anyone okay! I had enough with everything. I'm now in transition phase. Didn't I told u everyone I'm not interested in XY gene.. wats wiv ur head anyway!! I don't wanna people start making story because of ur lumpish, moron attitude. I'm on my own!!! if u're such an old mate behave like one, say hi and get rid of me. There's no need of being idiot on my matters. Right now!!!!okay right now I'm telling the world, I dont need pet name cuz I'm all grown up!!!and I wont be giving names to anyone either.So please, I'm 21 years old. Old enav to think, things dat I dun like, I need tell right on d nose dat i dun like things dat unnecessary. I don't need stupidity. I feel disgusted!!! Man, seriously!!!Urghhhhhhh!!!Respect my friends and my family who in d same socialization sites. Even my Ex-bf never done such thing ever. You're no match for me for such idiot jokes. I am 21 !!!!not 5 years old!!!Once I told u I dun like it means I dun like it. I always told d things dat I dun like once, telling twice makes me look like a s&^%!!Big remorse!!!!!I am not d old Aisya. Not anymore!

My HORRIFIC Experience

2010-11-03T07:41:00.002+08:00

Do you believe wiv the unseen? Have you ever experience one? Chill run down my spine wen it comes to diz unseen. Not a great topic to start with but to learn about it is smth important. The unseen is everywhere, wher we share d living with. I wasn't as serious if I never heard one. "Exorcism" I was wondering how do you treat diz vocab~ Things that happen yesterday was a climax of a horrific zap! Ther'z been an exorcism next to my apartment. That was d first time I ever heard such ghostly conversation of a demon. I was ther on d balcony wiv my rommie witnessed d scary part (we end up closing all d windows because a holy teacher come over to get rid of d thing). I tell you what, dats d most frightful 24 hour for me & us. Before diz I was watching sum movies on TV (the fame emily rose). Seriously having d hard time went to bed especially wen I kept having diz delusions of d demon sound! That thing act request 5 things as a term for it to leave the host (poor dat girl tho). I can't handle listening to the 5 conditions. I cud only bare until d 3rd request which makes me wanna collapse and dun wanna get up until next week. The 3rd request was d most most most insane. (like on tv tho) Swear to god I heard d girl screamed everytime d holy teacher recites the holy quran. Oh my gosh!kill me wen d demon said dey eat raw egg and they came frm such distance!!!and and and "it" came wiv lots of friends...scary tho ( oh my eyes watery!!!) I'm not being superstitious but really me & my rommie was scared hell out of d thing. (we went back early after dinner yesterday & recites sum holy quran).