Inspirational Wednesday

Love & Prayers For The Victim

There's nothing more troubled than having a morning news reporting how pathetic some group of people in destroying others life. My love and prayers are for those who badly injured in Boston marathon. Speaking of these bombing activity I just wondering how world can turn this violent just because of the stupidity of a portion of senseless human. Or I shouldn't be calling them human.

New Cover, Horrible Saturday, Monday Ended

I had a horrible Saturday ever! (well most of my saturdays start out sucks anyway). I've got myself an L license now and currently been working on P. Horrible experience ever in my education life! I've never had a moment that I'm scared the shit out of me just because of some learning process. I'm risking my life driving a car for the first time. It was fun speeding but no fun bearing the numbness on your feet (screw those accelerator break & clutch damnit). It was all fine in the morning, I did my parking smoothly and the slopes was alright, anyhow I was born harsh and rash. How am I suppose to pull the gear gracefully?!! tell me?!! Well thats fine not until the part where a teacher I dont bother to care who the figgin shit he is but he shouted at me. Thinking I was going to turn at the parking spot. Seriously I have common sense, what kind of asshole will turn at the side by side parallel parking. Hello my IQ is obviously higher than you uncle~ people are so insensible these days. He screamed for the fun of it, the fuck he thinks. I seriously have some major anger management issue so be it!

Moving on! I have a new hobby of doing cover for people's song ( a cover is not a plagiarism isn't??) Anyway if you care to view my pathetic hobby here's the link [http://ashvexvile.tumblr.com/] ;) Just apart of my useless life, I wasted every 30 minutes screaming on other people songs. Actually been working on my own songs. I dont mean to make it commercial but I just wanna create something on my own, the way I express myself through songs. Some stuff are are to express in writings or even conversation. Maybe songs will work!

Anyhow, Monday gonna end soon, for me my day ended after 5.30 pm on weekdays C=

See you tommorow cheerios!

I'm warning you

This has been the most emotional blog that contains explicit thoughts right from my neurons. I may have been the most non-forgetful person on earth when it comes to past events. People, day after day I just can't say sorry anymore. I may have reciprocate synonims with antonyms that resulting error in vocabulary. Pardon me if you said "move on and forget the past"..well well well speaking of moving on. I am moving on and this is the price I'm having because of those dozens and hundred millions of odd conditions. How can you forget the past you asshole, seriously, it is something that destroy you inside out and you said everybody and everyone on earth should forget it. Its like getting North Korea to forget South and move on (will it work?).

Let  me brew your goldfish brain, I cant be moved. Nothing will move me on because my thoughts and wrath is still there. I'm warning you!

I mean it because im mean

Imaginations brings you out of your life, make you achieve your dreams and make you creative. Well that is just an exordium of my post. Tell me in 5 words, oh no make it 3 words, how to live a happy life. Seriously if you yourself look troubled and keep on trying to preach the whatsoever because I just wanna divulge from todays onwards (reminder) that all of you had caused me to be this rebellious woman.
People are wondering the hell had gone into her (me). Call me disgrace (maybe) call me bad. Because "some" people just dont realize they may have caused me to be this dark person. Swear to go I'm scared of myself because I cant estimate or even anticipate what im capable of. Before I learn to speak my language now, it was so bad in the past that it keeps on rolling in my head. Accumulating anger, bottling up wrath and dozens of sheer piece of madness streaming in my vein. Until the point I do not know myself anymore. Blame who? (just please dont make me laugh over this trivia questions)

Blame the preachers, blame the people that coming sickly from the pores. Thank you for their wrong approach and thanks for their ferocious comments  I manage to become a person like me ! Please enough showing off the kindness to world, stop trying just please. I will not digest anything shallow because for now my thoughts is based on my believe. I believe for what I believe it is..You may hate me I'm receiving the hates with my open arms, I may have corrupted my mind and I dont wanna look back. That typical preach, that super typical sensitivity and extremely typical opinions. I can't breathe in that very shallow oxygen circle. Round applause the shows over, please go back to your swamp (i mean it because i am mean)

The life, longer than your breath

Hey peeps, its been a while, it shows I'm enjoying my life. A reminder to everyone, you have right to yourself, don't listen to others opinion. Another reminder is mind your business in your ass. You live the life, you know the hell is going on. My notes, just hold it right there if you wish to further reprobate my demenor.

Seriously, nowadays, people are so laughable especially the way they preach good deeds (I know when I need to repent myself). Those wannabes that growing in the society is so sickening. These days it becomes a viral trends and they are like patogens coming out from pores. Fine, if I have to forget the historical event but I believe each of us made a mistake. Each one of us has grown up and wake up the next day everything that you plan is just obsolete and its a beginning of a new start, regardless of how bad it can be. And who are you to know what others are struggling to fight in their life. Who even give you rights to judge when the whole world are moving in the axis where justice is never right today. I'm not being an ass but the world make me. I have lived through every bitter things that I'm sick of sreaming about it in my head. So please, anybody who wish to project their preach on me, I'm sorry you're just putting a fifth wheel on me.

I'm very frank in these kind of things because if you weak people will stab you, step on you trample you and throw you like a piece of dirt. You can veil your dark shades but I know your true color. If you have done it once there's no way you will do it twice. I don't believe innocent face, preaching good, that is a garbage if people will want to buy. I have stories written somewhere for me by my creator. I am this person. I love my haircuts, I love loud music and dance, I love whatever that you hates. So suck it up.

Rotten

Earth is just another painful place I would rather burry myself and die. I just could not understand why things goes that way. First of all relatives are suppose to be the safest place we could run to. Happen to be some people just being mean and hateful. Every single minute that I have eating my brain out. Trust me sometimes I give up giving chances to people outthere because they never deserve it. I have life to live and i have my own hardship that I expect ppl to understand live with it and not putting us at the bottom.

What happen tonight just a shallow hatred and i decided what comes next will be me and always me. Why do i need to trust them my relatives. They just a bunch of grown ups who doesnt know how to make ppl live their life easy. They always wanna put smth bad in return of our happiness. Such a shallow circle i have. I wud rather bring my family and my youngest aunt to live in states living those crappy ass here rotten in Malaysia. Trust me i need a moment of chucky. Too bad chucky died. I'd kill for a person to talk to me but i only open up to one person and he died a 2 years ago!

Swithching Blog

Hola ! Happy Eid Mubarak everyone :) just wanna tell ya i have new blog that i just started posting some stuff here it is LisbethLee.blogspot.com ;) love xx

Ramadhan

Happy blessed Ramadhan to all muslims and of course others who enjoy the month (random). I must admit I haven't been here for quite sometimes. I know there's a lot of things to catch up though the audience are most probably someone anonymous tht might come across my blog first time. Since  I left university I think I loose the part of me that love to crap all along. Of course, my time was officially taken by my working life and hence nothing much i could brag accept for one two stuff and eventually after 24 hours I'm too tired to brought up any argument (being on bed is the best choice). Now, my life is pretty much on I have job and weekend is precious :)

Actually I just moved to a new job and this is totally new to me. So I'm now in transition from a HR spec to Conference Producer..Overall the job is okay and I'm kindda happy with it (hoping to claim commission). Anyway, this year I found out I have less drama than few years back I hope that's not a sign of complete adulthood. For some reason I just hate the term "adulthood" its like a nightmare. Nobody wants to grow up when they already half way to enter early adulthood. Screw the little me who wish to grow up fast 20 years ago..(lol) Afterall things turn up nicely and today I'm gonna do a little bit of shopping :)

Alright then, till we meet again :)

I'm just human and everyone knows that

Welcome to hell, pls check how many days you need to spend here. Oh yeah 365 times forever. Thanks enjoy being baked crisp! Big issues? Big stuff? Yeah got problem with me or you would like to join this honorable life with me? I never asked this life anyway and i dont have right to complain too actually. Well things wont always turn up right screw horoscope cuz its a lie. Nothing can take over god destiny. Things change, pattern change. I changed frm somebody who stray from love, get to know them and hate them. I changed from a person who dont know right to care, being someone who care to someone ignorant. I tremendously changed from someone who knows when stress come there's always a good way to get rid of it, into someone who rather run away frm problems and twist it to unhealthy way. This is Life, to be precise my Life! Not all stuff in your head can be shared. I dont really like to brag bout my personal problem either cuz right now i only value fun in life! I know being a girl, a daughter, a friend, a foe and a lover at the same time is typically HARD. Unless you know what heaven had  planned for you. No one..nobody in this world should play god. Only my Almighty can do such impossible to me but not an ordinary human being. Now, i mean right now itself I started to have sense of disbelieve on things called love. If married ppl can get divorced whats the meaning of love? Whats the point of having a bf, a fiance and a wedding just to get divorced in the end. Love is such a waste perhaps if that what it taught me. Don't blame me if my memory held me to move on..because you just reminded me to it. If its just the same thing i consider it a waste and im not sorry to push you out. Im just human and everyone knows that..

Just a school of thought

Salut! Great wishes from the owner of this parcel. Anyway, knowing that im on a bullet train instead of ktm so time flies really fast that I dont even know im getting a +1 for my age. (envisage grey hairs and all the aunties behavior) well being 23 i know age is just number but we dont live forever :) Well this month im pretty much in a transition. Moving to a new job is not easy because we have to start all over again to know each other. For me just pace forward and see what god has planned for you. I know its kinda weird for me being nice in this blog. As for today my mitochondria is running low. Basically im having a low atp in this body (pointing at myself). Things doesnt seem to change but i think i changed. Still no worry im still that insensitive person when you poke me. I hate to be poked for nothing. This will lead to topic of the day ( all atp suddenly clogged in brain) "what makes it different" well what make u me we us different? No this time is not about us. Its about how u manage expectation when u noe u need to avoid "what makes a difference". Frustrating of course..everyone shud at least have system to manage other. Speaking about system i nvr (of course) meant mechines. I try my best not to make things rather archaic than normal. My case today evolves around " system creation". This cud be a lil bit tedious but i tell u because someone in this world dont have his own system i'm suffering from a bad romance hangover. Oh cmon like seriously how do u make ursev contactable if u off the country for quite sometimes or atleast alternatives??????this will eventually make me feel, what makes it different if my past offer me the same thing. Its just a horrible experience that i dun wish to live with. Because the past have the worst system and hence im not wishing present offer me the same. I might as well just go back to the old genre of me. Wasted, mostly time drained, neve a convincing life. So create your system and dont let others sacrifice the least thing that she ever wanna live with. Be something by offering something different. Chao

Hail the prayers, I wont change my mind

Sorry but this is really a right time to throw veng. in here. Was it me or work had been pretty annoying and pissing you off more than ever. I don't wanna be frank cuz its the truth that some ppl have to swallow (i'll make them swallow hard). I do not know since when im being an ass that very particular about things. I hate perfectionist seriously and I do not wanna be one. Its very much stupid to be anxious bout something simple and there's a damn solution if you could just sit for 2 minutes and chill!
Today, i was suppose to manage the stuff for some training thingy and what make me really pissed until my heart rate become unconditionally handicap and i think my brain work faster with the dirty vocabs. I can never be mad unless its really the things that made me so out of my head. The cupcakes were totally ruined and its impossible to be given away to any human being. Like a cat food i see. Not to be arrogant but really I fucking hate when things does not go on my way.
Things bout me, I love to bottle up my anger and I really dont wanna blow eventhough i'll say things that make sense. With current emotional imbalance and the urge of splitting myself into 10 I promise some will regret it. Hail the prayer but I wont change my mind!