Saturday, June 30, 2012

I'm just human and everyone knows that

Welcome to hell, pls check how many days you need to spend here. Oh yeah 365 times forever. Thanks enjoy being baked crisp! Big issues? Big stuff? Yeah got problem with me or you would like to join this honorable life with me? I never asked this life anyway and i dont have right to complain too actually. Well things wont always turn up right screw horoscope cuz its a lie. Nothing can take over god destiny. Things change, pattern change. I changed frm somebody who stray from love, get to know them and hate them. I changed from a person who dont know right to care, being someone who care to someone ignorant. I tremendously changed from someone who knows when stress come there's always a good way to get rid of it, into someone who rather run away frm problems and twist it to unhealthy way. This is Life, to be precise my Life! Not all stuff in your head can be shared. I dont really like to brag bout my personal problem either cuz right now i only value fun in life! I know being a girl, a daughter, a friend, a foe and a lover at the same time is typically HARD. Unless you know what heaven had  planned for you. No one..nobody in this world should play god. Only my Almighty can do such impossible to me but not an ordinary human being. Now, i mean right now itself I started to have sense of disbelieve on things called love. If married ppl can get divorced whats the meaning of love? Whats the point of having a bf, a fiance and a wedding just to get divorced in the end. Love is such a waste perhaps if that what it taught me. Don't blame me if my memory held me to move on..because you just reminded me to it. If its just the same thing i consider it a waste and im not sorry to push you out. Im just human and everyone knows that..

Thursday, June 28, 2012

Just a school of thought

Salut! Great wishes from the owner of this parcel. Anyway, knowing that im on a bullet train instead of ktm so time flies really fast that I dont even know im getting a +1 for my age. (envisage grey hairs and all the aunties behavior) well being 23 i know age is just number but we dont live forever :) Well this month im pretty much in a transition. Moving to a new job is not easy because we have to start all over again to know each other. For me just pace forward and see what god has planned for you. I know its kinda weird for me being nice in this blog. As for today my mitochondria is running low. Basically im having a low atp in this body (pointing at myself). Things doesnt seem to change but i think i changed. Still no worry im still that insensitive person when you poke me. I hate to be poked for nothing. This will lead to topic of the day ( all atp suddenly clogged in brain) "what makes it different" well what make u me we us different? No this time is not about us. Its about how u manage expectation when u noe u need to avoid "what makes a difference". Frustrating of course..everyone shud at least have system to manage other. Speaking about system i nvr (of course) meant mechines. I try my best not to make things rather archaic than normal. My case today evolves around " system creation". This cud be a lil bit tedious but i tell u because someone in this world dont have his own system i'm suffering from a bad romance hangover. Oh cmon like seriously how do u make ursev contactable if u off the country for quite sometimes or atleast alternatives??????this will eventually make me feel, what makes it different if my past offer me the same thing. Its just a horrible experience that i dun wish to live with. Because the past have the worst system and hence im not wishing present offer me the same. I might as well just go back to the old genre of me. Wasted, mostly time drained, neve a convincing life. So create your system and dont let others sacrifice the least thing that she ever wanna live with. Be something by offering something different. Chao