Sunday, February 28, 2010
Friday, February 26, 2010
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Encouraging myself to throw myself out frm the bed,i was the let my brain left empty. I really dun wanna think of any problems that i had,feeling or any skeptical desire..tout va bien,at the moment, my french is a bit rusty since ages away frm it..i just hav a pack of choc gardenia (i hate creams) this morning and my head is getting dizzy *i skip my pills..nothing really bizzare that can ruin my 1st day of probation~no one noe bout this so dey must be wondering how weird i didnt scream any words today,i was completely silent and doin my stuff,,quel est le plat du jour ??nothing..accept i had misprinted the letter for the 3rd time,mais je reve!!:(( my left head is getting worst but i still wanna write here..i dont care,,i will nver leave my bloggie and my diary alone--its my everything..i just wanna commit to some ppl that "vous n'aves pas le droit!!to say things bout me" okay..m cool with dat and i have load of work,ther goes my day 1 started to be a bit hot and spicy..hmm..i mumble to myself the whole way back to my room..i have to manage foods,i have to make sure things..who am i?united states president?i need a break..but i had a break last week,indeed long break,so i told maself not to complain just do it..diorng mmg love to ask me to do this and that..hmm..i'm not complaining,,Qu'est-ce que tu aimes faire pour t'amuser?i had lost d definition of fun,and my life isnt fun anymore cuz i lost apart of myself,yg get drown ngan benda2 yg childish and nonsense..A good present need to have new wrapping paper,an old song need a new rhythm..really i had lost fun,cuz i just felt..hmm leave it,,
I'm gonna have to hold a piling up work tho i just finish one that reli mountainous..i reli wanna be wif someone that always sparks my day once upon a time,,i dun wanna give him burden by telling mine,,i keep wishing 24/7,,checking my inbox..but its empty,, un garcon dat i love..in this busy moment wen i'm trully sick,headache,vommiting and weak..or wen i'm in d middle of crisis,in d middle of busy crowd..i just cant stop thinking bout him..ther goes my probation day 1..full of consternation,blurry picture,headache,tasks and get a non stop phone call frm the vice president..
I need a green grass to lie on instead of bed,,i wanna fly to a place wher thats just soft breeze and waves and perfect sun covered wif clouds...i wanna be next to the fall,lying on the hammock,,wild flowers blooming,so tropical..so peaceful..hmmm..sigh..(long)..away..
i need a place to throw myself to..
"i need a relationship that i can finally sink my teeth into...."vampire kisses by ellen shreiber
i dun mean it dat way (just bcoz i call him vammpy) but think deeper beyond the words,this isnt about being in lust okay,just think beyond it,its about acceptance..i trust him,believe him more than anything in my life does..cuz in my brain my vein my impulses my cells my epidermic my neuron..its all about him!!cuz i darn love him..oryte dats all cuz m gonna spill things too much and dats not nice,,keep half of the reasons in me tho..imy ily
i wanna change..everything...,yeah~sure..and to all my friends,my family,my vamppy,my college..my uni..cheh poyo lak..if u guys have any confession sila buat sekarang when my storm is in my pocket,u guys penah curik gula2 ak ke,u guys pernah rosakkan mp4 ak ke,(dgn harapan yg very explicit) :) i have no reason to do stupid lame things anymore,gosh i dun wanna starts wif those dirty words anymore..(je vais bien)..hmm..but at this moment reli need someone dat can understand my reckless head,huhu (since wen ak ad kwn yg dga ak ckp kol 3 pg??)..maybe i dun need afterall,i can talk(writing) to my diary (surely listen and no negative feedback)..to my friends:do u guys reli love me?accept me the way i am?wont push me away?wont hurt me?--->(love mimi's mum cook) lol
i need support!!*is it like cheerleader sort of thing?..ehe..
Monday, February 22, 2010
Comment dit-on malang en francais?Merci bloggie for being my 2nd diary (at least not a detail thing i wrote in my blue super diary)je ne comprends pas npe i love writing..hmm..anyway,today reli my bad day rsenye~hmm..long way to put into a short story,adeh..i was dehydrated,,mau je lari g hospital "doctor tolongla!s'il te plait DRIP saya!tolong doctor sy dah nk mati" sounds paranoid..i was asking some coins (dgn mke pucat lesi anemia or thalesmia *cm nizar..)..vending mechine kat lobby off so i went to hall..and really (*#$%%$#@#$) that "kindhearted" mechine g telan my coins tanpa mengeluarkan any drink..m sweating already and it was a cold sweat (read fact:cold sweat is non-healthy one)..hoping to call 911 for immediate glucose *just h--- drip me..i went back into d claz breathless and vulnerable and wif my chicken twig leg almost tripping..being silent for 2 hours or m gonna fell fainted in front of d crowd in my claz and miss humaira that reli enthusiastically teaching in front ..few thing happen following the event ~i was being question for my short stories cuz of the english is so classic and reli like a novel writer *aduh..pening la..je ne comprends pas!!!pourqui??is it wrong to rite in dat kind of accent..sy rela buat 1 story and u sit in front of me cuz d result will be d same,i was reli xlarat to answer so i just throw an answer "yes i wrote it i love vampire and always readin it but i dun copy cat" pas grand-chose i can say..sekali lagi terasa nak sujud kat lantai dah *rsenye dah terlebih garam dats y i dehydrated..hmm..je vais bien but then i reli pas si bien~xlarat nk tell everything in one page,xtermasuk salah print,aniq xtampal2 memo,and ak kne buat semua drama pnye script (mcamla 2nd year ni terlampau relax,i have mahasiswa,debate,latihan industri,college,assgnment,2 mid term THIS WEEK) how bien and heaven if ad assistant..senang je "nah bwatkan script)
When kepala yg berdarah rse mcm xde darah,When jari yg painful rse cm xde pape..mean mmg ak dah putus fius..huuuu..pas mal..terasa diri popular sekejap lepas sign memorandum for president,and every monday yg mmg bernas,because of ESE class. I take dat as Aisya fanclub class,,these ppl were really frantically lame funny...i notice i have few nick name in one claz,Aisya sexy,Aisya sayang,Siti sayang..haha,i felt like havin a public humiliation,,*blame the story telling session aritu..je suis desole to mysev..and wondering y zureini xreply2 text aku,rpenye..battery aku yg low..ish...s'il vous plate!apres demain is meeting..and terasa gila kejap sebub tlampau byk letter kne tulis,,quelle heure est-il?il est une heures..maaa..m not in shower yet..lol..bien,m now facing my lappy printing out some of the new letter..and syezly bau blik yang dah pelbagai,kejap chocs,kejap strawberry kejap cherry blossom,haishh..il y a beaucoup le fragrance..and if khad didnt text me til 1.30 (oh my , a vos souhaits!!speakin of the devil her text comin in..khad psychic)..i was just about to say "j'irai avec toi"..pegi sensorang..sungguh ak dah ptus fius pergi cmpur2 bahasa,kejap bm,bi french..plez no germany..lol..je suis Aisya after all..huhu..love mixing lang~chio
My room totally smell like a chocolate,is it because of my perfume combination or the air freshner or even ther's actually exposed chocs in my room..After a few hour thinking so i take diz step,not brilliant enough but i can assure that there will be changes in my behavior.*refers to appaling manner..to nice carved one..haih,no claz for 12-2..So tmrow wil be first of my Anger Management Probation and Jovial Forever..
Things to do
~update memo board
~printing out drama script (before my lovely houghton eddie membebel~it'll take ages to stop and even worst my fanclub in ESE claz)
~get someone expert to translate report into bm
~Law *sexual harrasement case
Tips of the day
inhale,exhale let it go
always stick wif chocs *remain calm
not forget to SMILE
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Haahahahahhah...i bumped into this funny horoscope thingy,tergelak terguling mcm kne histeria jap..lol...gle lawak..but fact or myth or even assumption..how can u measure stuff by whether the moon is retrograde or not..hahah..some trait mite be hit the true spot..some just ahahahahahaha...I'm a CANCER..how do u define my traits by my moon?weird!
"Are you a little confused as to what cancerian girl really is - chirpy, somber or distant? She is all of these and still, she is none of these. Even more confused? A Cancerian woman has mood swings every now and then and these are only a few of her mood swings. However, her basic personality traits remain the same. She is very sensitive, emotional, kind and caring. Now's the catch! Most of her traits will be hidden behind a shell (what shell???u mean cm siput tu ke?hahahah) of indifference and aloofness, breaking which will require quite a lot of effort.
We will have to gently coerce a Cancerian girl to get out of her shell and come into the big bad world without it. When in love, she will be tender, womanly, timid and modest. She dislikes criticisms, can't stand rejection and gets deeply hurt by harsh words. Too much aggressiveness on your part may make her a little hesitant. She loves her mother, so you better learn to love as well as respect her too.
A Cancer woman will never make the first moves in a relationship; she only knows how to move backwards or sideways. This is because of two reasons, her shyness and her fear of being rejected. This female has some secrets and she won't like you prying around her personal diary. She is very insecure and will need your constant reassurance. It doesn't matter if she is the current 'Miss Universe' or has men drooling over her all the time, it is your attention and appreciation she would be the most concerned about.
We will have to learn to live with a Cancerian woman’s mood swings, which is not so difficult since she is so good in every other way. She is extremely loyal and will keep you happy with her warm and rich humor. Once she is committed to you, she will remain yours forever and ever. Adultery is not one of her traits. With a Cancerian woman, you will always have to be careful with words. She is very sentimental and can get hurt very easily. Then, she can cry like a 2-year old baby and you will be expected to console her and wipe her tears.
A Cancer female is a great cook and makes better food than a 5-star hotel chef. She is quite careful with money as well. Neither will she be stingy, nor totally extravagant. She has a habit of saving everything that is usable, be it money, old buttons or empty jars. She also saves things that have a sentimental value attached to them, like the sweater grandmother knitted on her fifth birthday. A Cancer female fiercely guards what is hers and that includes you too! However, she is not too possessive or jealous. But, she does not like sharing her love too.
"She is one of those people who do not crib about bad luck. She will get depressed and may shed a few tears alone, but she will be patient and wait for the time to change again, this time in her favor. Almost all the Cancerians have the desire of being pampered like a child, especially when they feel low. Don't forget to pay your Cancer girl extra attention when she is depressed, otherwise she may retreat deeper into her shell. And then, it will be very difficult to bring her back to her normal self." i dun understand what does this suppose mean..hahahaha..
She will want to be told time and again that she is still desirable and you still need her. However, she is not weak and is completely capable of looking after herself. In fact, she is one of those who sacrifice all that they have, for their loved ones. She just needs some spoiling after every few days. A Cancerian woman may be fragile as far as her feelings are concerned, but when you need her, she will be as strong as the 'Rock of Gibraltar'. She will also be very protective of her children and make them feel completely secure.
A Cancer female always needs you, but she will never get too aggressive. She will listen to your worries and make you smile again!"
* this color present the maybe true statement
*this one TOTALLY WRONG
*this includes uncertainty
this is just a COPY PASTE thing!
At First Sight--mmg la m a type of person yg xmenghayati lyric..hahahaha..damn..its a gay song!!!cant believe i like this song..but syezly it nice..just the part.."you said u wanted me to be ur GF"..sounds normal ryte...suddenly "i know u hate me..i'm .....GUY" *guy 1..and "you like the GUY on ur ipod and not the guy in ur bed" *guy 2..huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...apakah~theres 2 GUY...bluekkkk..if i cud force u to love me i wud..force who?hahahah..and PHYSICAL CHEMISTRY?hahaha..this even funnier..
Well yesterday we kindda mess in a car accident,,its quite hot goin on outside..i yg sememangnye malas nk get into this emoic stuff stay shut not triggering myself..cuz i noe what will come out frm my mouth..the F or the S thing..dats not nice..so i stay shut cuz i dun wanna talk in english and i dun feel like joining the debate for a stupid car injury..Tim was freaked out entirely..cken said we are all screwed tp still bley laugh..u see its funny they claim 300 buck for a dirt yg bley lap gne car polish and they make thing worst so dat they get paid..dts y tim was so freaked hell soooo gle out!cken said maybe cuz they saw what shirt we wear what shoe we put on and the bags..dats y they all mntak byk2..hahah..i just smirked..aleng made a stupid joke..jual kasot nike cken and my adidas pay the fine..huhu..putus fius pnye kwan
Friday, February 19, 2010
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
This afternoon i went for lunch,ther was my food and i bought another one as in take away pack..*dgn harapan m gonna eat it in 3 hours from dat particular time..(and ice cream)..Apparently,my eating disorder *desire to eat yg melampau..its not even an hour passed..20 minute I guess,I started to unwrapped the food container and finish it!!outrangeous!weird!horrific!(can u do that?) I mean m a girl..but doesn’t matter..m not afraid of growing fat but the fact is..this behavior is nonsense..imagine,,u just have ur lunch 30 minutes ago and u have another food 20 minutes later as heavy as ur lunch was..huwaaaa..i noe this keep going to happen for a week (darn it happen once a month)..untill~~*screwed hormonal swing in body system..and to make it worst is d food was soooo super hyper spicy..what I did was chewed it for 4 times and swallow it..they tot I was crying insane on d food,but trust me..i was sobbing because its too hot, even after 500 ml mineral water came into my throat..my lips was super hot burning,,so I sat on my bed eating lollypop and endure the firing spices..Feel like the super hot spicy effect blends wif my blood and all gone red..and yeah I was sweating *to show how spicy the food was..and now here I am at 7 p.m starts to be HUNGRY again..*a moment a way to be a bad wolfie..bad2 wolfie mcm dlm lil re d riding hood..huhu..seriously m starving and café officially closed (taz café)..what kind of tummy I owned once in a month????for the god sake..heaven send me some food plez~~*dgn mke pnuh kesian..this eating syndrome really kills me..uwaaa..just a moment ago I made my ears in d superb pain,the earing dat I wore on my right stuck on my shirt..ahhhhh..dat was indeed a slight of movement dat leads to auchhhh..ngeeeee…screwed everything!nasib xkoyak 2 my ear..torn internally..therz gotta be swell spot on d right..ehmm..i wanna go for shower,,before I fall asleep and being a stinks dork..euww..so not hygienic..okay..daaaa virtual world~