Sunday, January 31, 2010

Stupid Morron and etc

The first word dat gonna come out is…fuck u!ddiz is damn annoying..i was away for my dinner last nite..d gal dat read my diary..she’s so over the limit..HOW CAN U STUPIDLY USE ANOTHER PERSON FACEBOOK AND UPLOAD UR PICTURE ON IN AND SESUKA HATI BEING A FAN OF SMTH..morron!!!dats my facebook..who give u permission to use it..just because I didn’t log out doesn’t mean u can use it tell u what stupid creature I HAD IT ENOUGH!!!becoz

1. I WAS THE ONE HELPING HER SEND EMAILS TO HER LECTURER FOR HER ASSIGNMENT..NOT HELPING BUT I’M D ONE WHO DID IT!!! (like I was forced)

2. DATS OKAY IF SHE ASKED ME TO HELP UPLOAD PHOTOS IN FACEBOOK

3. DATS NOT OKAY TO USE MY FACEBOOK WHEN I OUT FOR DINNER WIF NO SUPERVISION

4. THIS IS SO FUCKING SHIT!

5. SHE ACTED LIKE NOTHING HAPPEN

6. I’M NOT GONNA TALK TO HER

7. I ASKED ALENG TO LOCKED MY DOOR CUZ I DUN WANNA SEE HER FACE BEFORE ME..M SO PISSED LIKE..TOOOOOO PISSED..

8.I CANNOT CALM DOWN

9. I WANNA SLAM HER HEAD ON THE VENDING MECHINE

10. F%&^ U

I just cant calm down and I have to locked myself up before I start to maki, rebellious and u gonna be dead seeing me in anger..i wanna crush her head wif esprit bottle!!!Stupid ppl using stuff w/o permission..we’re talking bout MY PRIVACY HERE!!!!is she blind or she just cudn’t see the SUGARFREE word on d facebook..i shud have locked my fucking door!!..i was so pissed and fucking delete it all..do u noe how much I HATE BEING IN ANGER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!m gonna be someone else dat u probably dun wanna see..i dun wanna be that ANOTHER person..so please its okay to make me SAD but not MAD..i cant play basketball at night since the ball got no air..i have to release it or its gonna be a GRUDGE...so please moron dun make me MAD or PISSED..like more than lvel 10..10 is the limit..(tho I dunno how to measure anger)..I hate to be ANOTHER person wen I’m mad..cuz dats gonna be awful..and not even nice to be seen..i choose ppl to use my fb..dats just belong to my vampire..not other ppl..only him cam break my privacy..not HER WITH HER STUPID BRAIN

Saturday, January 30, 2010

finally the day end

Whats left is just self hum and sighs…I have the best day ever and the worst day ever..hows dat anyway..no need to be bragged here I guess..there is no need to tell stories dat shudnt be told..i have the best day ever and I wanna share with the world but d worst part I kept in my pocket near to my heart..m gonna start wearing heart on my head or on my toe..forget those bad things anyway..me and my classmate (khad,Debbie,pinky,irene,dewi,martha) went for futsal..i’m practically not so good in diz game cuz somehow ppl were inspired by football since I hate football so I have no intention to learn~bla bla bla..it was a cool game yesterday..as we screamed we ran we jump we bumped on each other and we mistakenly kicked others..that was fun..i was chosen to be the striker..i like this playin wif ball thingy!!i can run until I’m losing my breath and surprise I felt my leg kindda ringan to move around..as usual fell so many time and my futsal shoe that i eventually found in the store at my apartment kindda slippery cuz the court I gez…it does hurt but I stand up again for the game..only when I woke up diz morning i realize my ankle swollen and both my knee went reddish blue..gonna suffer for a few days I guess..but dats okay..m okay with it..m still breathing and instead I ate a lot..high metabolism..on the eve we went for frenzy stuff..yelling at the spring kbox..thats really relieving my tension..the last time I went for this is..i dun remember..wif my cuzzy elly kot..i was curling myself like a ball on a bed for a semester…cheez..

However part of the concern thing is I forgot my hair gel whatsoever..cuz really my hair look fuddy-duddy..lol..juz continue screaming and freezing in the chilly aircond..its okay kot to release tension sometimes…yeah..i went to PADINI just to buy a sweater..gosh..boleh mati beku!!!den bumped into mimie and her goody boy(PAK SOOD)..lol..mmg kantoi..me pn busted cuz I dun tell them m goin out for futsal and movie wif khad..esp wen she said “amboi2 xreti2 nak balik rumah ye”..if cikin found out m gonna be “bebel,leter,ceramah” whatelse in malay we says dat...we went for movie afterwards and the funny thing was I was too freak out wif the movie till d point I dun eat d popcorn cuz I was so busy covering my face and screaming2..man.sitting next to dewi and khad yg cm xde feeling langsung..xcept pinky yg tutup her entire face...really seram la dat movie..not seram but..euwww..freaky ngeri..the ghost wasn’t dat spooky but wen dey show how dey r killed dat was so freakin me out..gila psycho!!!!i dun even drink my mineral~sigh..u guys gotta watch haunted university just for the screams..its not a good movie cuz I dun get the point it lead us to..jln cerita yg berbelit2..and there goes text comin in.hmmm..shall not mention it..m a lil bit outta mood at the moment den we go for supper and finally the day end..

Friday, January 29, 2010

MY FUTSAL SHOE IS MISSING!!!TENSION!!URGHHHHHH

Basketball Tragedy??

How does it feel wen u haven’t bleed for such time?lol..nway this isn’t bout emotion kay. I’m talking on behalf of real cut..i went for basketball diz evening..havent touch it since last sem..kindda rusty a bit..pushing hard for 3 point shot yg xmsuk2 ring for the past 30 minutes..apparently I was alone so no people to chat with..so it was a serious try out after leaving the game for few month..As usual d ball msuk longkang and hell what happen was I got this injuries bcoz of dat..theres a long cut at my arm..bruises will be...which I consider as painful enough n wallah!its bleeding in advance..just put a lil sigh cuz I hate blood n I can have a grip (thanx to haemophobia).m not kid anymore..n its childish to cry for blood..i keraskan my heart n….its getting dark..before there are some bisexual,transgendered,trans-whatsoever ppl bising2 at the next court..urghhh..so I plugged my ears wif my Samsung..eventually it’s rainin!!!arghhhh..i have to balik tho..walking frm cempaka to bunga raya..not bad..m starving..d last meal I had was at 9 a.m…n iced chos at 4p.m after went for e-voting thingy..-kne mara at nite-

Thursday, January 28, 2010

FOREVER IN MY LIFE

My love,my love,my love
i´ll give you all my love if you,if you,
if you dont change a thing,
About the way you hold me everynight,
so right, i wanna man like you to say FOREVER IN MY LIFE

tremendously palsy..m goin thru diz hard love recession..uhmmm is dat a proper jargon anyway...i dun care..i have no class today..n its election day..fhew..mine will be next week..speaking of devil the YDP just mail me the venue of d election..eee..
i miss him badly tho..i just cant think,eat whatever i did was him all over me..:((..wherd u go i miss u so..since like been forever that u been gone..
well dats okay he mite be busy somehow..n outta credit some more..i noe how a student life look like..so i try to squeeze into his mind slowly..n m typicaly sorry cuz being so emoic towards him..my moon is crushing me anyway..*literary saying..so hormonal disorder cause me to react toward unconditional n resulting irrational actions..dats it..i just dunno how to say how sorry i was for being such a grumpy old hag..sorry so badly..n i just dunno how to tell how much i love him..d only thing dat i see in diz planet earth..no other mars ppl rather than him..

Worst day ever!!!

I went to class like any other normal class i went..xcept m sitting way2 in front..dats drag Dr k attention anyway~~wua..dat wasnt the real point of the day wen he came and say.."good u read the journal already" *refers to 30++ page journal dat m not really have a deep interest btw..lucky he didnt call me in front..-saved by the uncertainty and dats the alternative of scenario planning--.Business class can be way2 spooky tho..the class end (yeay)..i was sitting in the bus taking out my biz magazine and my phone on the empty seat next to me..i have this kind of 6th sense u see..i have diz weird feeling of smth bad gonna happen n its about my stuff..i dun wanna figure it out cuz m heading to HEP for debate photoshot whatsoever and therez a public speaking afterwards..cant wait to join!i had a massive plan of the speeches..kindda xcited a bit..but i went to Pohonmas cafe 1st to have my iced chocs (my fav instead of choc cream chips in starbuck,duhhh we dun have starbuck in university compound)..n chicken noodles!!
There goes Monique wif her anxiety of being photo shot ~she keep asking me "do i look good??" man her hair is more than fabulous i can tell..really like her hairdo..cuz its nice!there goes another debater comin to my table..Melvin..i dunno what we're talking about and suddenly both of them talking bout phone..checking texts whatsoever suddenly the 1st thing that came acroos my mind is what if MY VAMPIRE texting me..so i grabbed my MNG bag..(iklan kejap)..whoaaaaaaaa!!almost SCREAMING HELL LOUD..i cudnt find my fon..n i took out everything!!!no sign of my samsung thingy..:((..m running outta mood already n start being paranoid..lucky melvin called the phone n somebody pick it up tho.. A GUY!!!SOUNDS REALLY BAD!!i dun lyke diz..my fon is somewhere on earth with anonymous whom didnt even tell his name on the 1st place..(being totally paranoid) till alex n monique came n drag me to d toilet n said "can u calm down.."..wua!!no i cant!!n will never were cuz my phone is wif somebody i dun even noe...felt like crying already..n grisha said i was having diz moody look n she cant stand it cuz m a jovial type of person wen i talked during debate meeting..n i lost apetite already~
GREAT everybody cramming at my place..nimmi,salley,dion,kabi,jo,alex guy,alex girl,monique and melvin and...quay..imagine m d only one eating and d food wasnt really finish n they all rebut me for dat..whoa..
i wasnt smiling at all tho!!!what the hell is wrong!!(thee is smth wrong wen ulost ur phone on the bus dat leads to entire university and therez bumper everywhere..it might have fell but lucky smbody pick it up but....whoaaa :((..n i had migrain so bad and i slept at 8.30 p.m..before my foot was lyke having fever and superb internal injury as i clumsily hit that locker thingy..ouch..really a bad day..n ther i get my phone back already it was an uncle around 40++ who kindly keepit..fhew..tough day..bcoz of dat i didnt join d public speaking cuz m running otta mood..nway dats all

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

143~i love u

Missing my vamps badly
Too late to stop
I had fallinluv wif my bloodsucker
BADLY

Ready For Class

Whatta morning..nway m doing stuff almost finish..so this is kindda sided job..lol..almost finish my text book..fhew last few hours was grumpy i had to switch my sitting position as my backache gonna assault me wif veng..nway got photo shot today for debate club..i still dunno watto do tho~maybe i'll join d public speaking n say some crap..super salute to my eye tho!!sleep diet yg melampau..but then its okay..cuz i woke up to study and put aside my pressurable pressure for a moment..yeah!!m ready for Dr K claz!!

Seek not my heart

Oh gentle winds 'neath moonlit skies,

Do not you hear my heartfelt cries?

Below the branches, here about,

Do not you sense my fear and doubt?

Side glistening rivers, sparkling streams,

Do not you hear my woeful screams?

Upon the meadows, touched with dew,

Do not you see my hearts a'skew?

Beneath the thousand twinkling stars,

Do not you feel my jagged scars?

Seek not my mournful heart kind breeze,

For you'll not find it 'mongst these trees.

It's scattered 'cross the moonlit skies,

Accompanied by heartfelt sighs.

It's drifting o're the gentle rain,

A symbol of my silent pain.

It's buried 'neath the meadow fair,

Conjoined with all the sorrow there.

It's lost among the stars this night,

Too far to ease my quiet fright.

No gentle winds, seek not my heart,

For simply ... it has torn apart.