Hail the prayers, I wont change my mind

Sorry but this is really a right time to throw veng. in here. Was it me or work had been pretty annoying and pissing you off more than ever. I don't wanna be frank cuz its the truth that some ppl have to swallow (i'll make them swallow hard). I do not know since when im being an ass that very particular about things. I hate perfectionist seriously and I do not wanna be one. Its very much stupid to be anxious bout something simple and there's a damn solution if you could just sit for 2 minutes and chill!
Today, i was suppose to manage the stuff for some training thingy and what make me really pissed until my heart rate become unconditionally handicap and i think my brain work faster with the dirty vocabs. I can never be mad unless its really the things that made me so out of my head. The cupcakes were totally ruined and its impossible to be given away to any human being. Like a cat food i see. Not to be arrogant but really I fucking hate when things does not go on my way.
Things bout me, I love to bottle up my anger and I really dont wanna blow eventhough i'll say things that make sense. With current emotional imbalance and the urge of splitting myself into 10 I promise some will regret it. Hail the prayer but I wont change my mind!

Part ii : Disgusting Relationship

Let me just clarify, the disgusting relationship will always be one:

This is not a time to tell stories, this just bitter past that I dont think I wanna live with (so why the hell i'm writing about it). I want this virtual world to imagine what is it like wasted university time falling in love with someone who actually set up by a friend.

Frankly, I will tell you I'm not smart because I've already figure it out once upon a time and never blow out. I was being so freaking kind all the time. When he go I let him, when my friend showing signs of a backstabber (yeah of course I brag in my entire 2010 post). What the hell did I owe her? What the hell he owe me? no answer cuz they doing it for fun. For the god sake what the hell of 3 years relationship.

I was right not to put her in my clan list, I know her limit. This is just too  much for a history. I had 2 sucks semester I tell you because of the stupid drama. He's a drama queen and I'm a bullied guy. Lucky I have another 4 semester to cover up the whole mess. Still, I think my brain functioning like a bunch of slugs.

Well, I am never gonna forgive them until they seek forgiveness from me. Screw you !! I hope you're reading and I will gladly put nasty words here for both of you. Seriously, I'm not joking. I'm not kind when you make me one. Please to meet the bad me because this one you poke me really bad. I've been bruised for no reason, being punished for nothing, being stab for nonsense.

Disgusting Relationship

Knowing that time never permit me to write that much anymore so I try to race them so I can type something. Quick question how many of ya'll loves "Oppss I did it again" ?? The thing is not I but you did it again. Frankly, I dont really like to express lumpish things in my blog anymore. I kindda feel distorted and look disturbed if I were to write crappy things here. However, I think let's just give myself a green light today. After a year keeping my life stationary, put a blind eye on everything. There it goes again...Lets just give me a full day of resentment where I can throw my tantrum to the respective person. I hate to be cheated over and over again with the same person that I've known for 4 years. C'mon like gimme a break...The ugly truth is always tormenting.

Afterall it wasn't about that filthy person but its such a shame that you're actually fooled by your own friend for the longest time sake. I couldn't believe that she's pretending nice to me for all these year and this is what I've got. How can you see another human being been tortured half of her life because of some love experiment. I feel disgusted over myself for falling in love with stupid boy (i was stupid too) and trust my friend on her hideous plan..For the first time of my life i feel like telling the world her true color but imma gonna sit back watch her game. One big fat question, "why would you prank people"? just because your love story sucks doesnt mean you have right to kill some other souls. Love is something that you can't simply jump in like hit and run...it involves emotional engagement. Poor thing she might be too lumpish to have those thoughts. I was right to doubt her from the start.

Its funny when I read all her timeline preaching something nice and be so close to religion line. Seriously, it makes me throw out. Bloody hell, are you retarded? Yes I love to throw my tantrum in my blog, but at least I don't do stupid experiments for years and prank around. You are filthy disgusting! I donnoe if I ever forgive such a thing. To that boy, you can straight go to the hell and I hope you"ll die burnt inside there! Once is not enough for you though you fake people. Sick people who don't enjoy life or I cud say don't even have lives. I regret knowing you and never in my life there will be a best of luck for you....

hi world of digital, its new year and im so psyched and i just realized that blogging by phone restrict me for some numbers and symbols. it sucks...i shud be having exclamation marks here..alright not much i can say but this break that i have for five days gonna be a real awesome cuz m gonna put aside all the bloody things that affect my life. so rise and shine..its cool sunday..

One Direction Fever

It’s not even two weeks left before New Year. I’m getting psyched because I’ll be flying off to Miri and having a blast New Year’s Eve with my girls. After all we have an event coming up before the fireworks can fill the air or fresh coming year. Christmas just 5 days ahead and of course I’ve been busy running here and there getting things done. Just so you know I haven’t gotten time to buy gift for everyone (think I have few in my mind). Next coming Saturday will be shopping time  I always wanted to have a new dress for New Year since the old one bores me already. I know I’m turning into some sort of Shopaholic but apparently I’m quite impressive with my financial plan, I can remain at least a few hundreds in account after the month is over (keep it up I said). Not much to be told for things that happen around me, just doing okay. However, I’m not that sure whether it was real okay or I’m just avoiding being not okay. How pathetic for not knowing self-current update. I just know that for these couple of weeks I am getting really obsessed with One Direction  I just think I need to have a new hobby rather than hooking up with something uncertain. I never been so fanatic with a boy band until I met this 5 adorable kids from UK. Round applause Niall, Harry, Zayn, Liam & Louis the best boy band ever. Lemme just list down my favorite track in their album “Up All Night”

1. Na Na Na

2. What Makes You Beautiful

3. Gotta Be You

4. One Thing

5. I wish

6. I want

7. Everything About You

8. Another World

9. Up All Night

10. More Than This

Try out people I’m sure you’ll fallin luv with the songs!!!! 

Until next time

Crazy Folks

Just realize that in this world we have to beware, don't ever trust your own shadow. ROFL epic isn't it. Here's thing, I came across something dat pinch me really bad. It will leave bruises somehow and I just think its the most ridiculous things ever. I need a break really, from all of those people who bounded themselves with jealousy and envious objective. I thought married people are wise enough to be in adulthood. Scary when you know they have new habits called, spreading rumors and talking mean. I dun even know what was that for. Seems like they've got too little in their hand that they start to look for a business in other people. How cheap was that. The main issue today is "hiring". Think I'm lucky enough to work where am I now and please I'm not getting help from any of my relatives for being what I am today. They deserve respects so I gave them but what I can assure what I got from them on my side were creepy bad alphabets. I'm am pleased to see them showing their true color even though I've seen it for YEARS. Just pray to god one day they'll change but appraently NOT. 

I just need to clarify certain thing in our hiring /recruitment process. We never do favoritism or even gender discrimination. Please bare in mind that office attire is something decent but not SEXY. I never know that our national outfit (Baju Kurung) categorized under "little piece of fabric". I really got no time to teach people who don't wanna learn to create peace and always hunger for war. When I'm being sexy I'll show them so that their eyeball will fall off one by one. I have no idea how these shortminded people get their aspiration. Probably through their moronic folks. They may laugh now but I can laugh louder. Like cmon, I dont even care what shirts they're wearing, cars dat they drove or even how much cash that theyearn. When it come to me everything matter like I'm so IMPORTANT (uuuu...awesome). Even a dumb ass can differentiate how being good and how is real good. I don't think preaches were enough to make themselves to be called saints. Trust me, they're even worst than a criminal. I am pissed with you people for telling me sick grandmother story and affecting everybody. I'm delighted to dare you to confront me face to face. Behind curtain is so not my style. I'm happy to give rebuttals. The first and last thing that I know is they don't give me a penny to make a life. They have to pay for whatever they have said. Crazy folks!

Boys Prefer Silence?

I just have 5 minutes starting from now! LOL,,actually I was browsing the web yesterday and i came across a blog saying bout "Why boys prefer silence". I found that the topic kindda paused me on my sit. I have to agree when they said its not that silence always directing towards negative thing. Perhaps in some part it can be yes. I just think that human are all creative creation of God. We have trillions and zillions personality in this world. Despite of segregating two gender , people tend to see things generally. (pardon me if you dont judge people based on general traits). When we're talking bout boys, i just think they are build up with no to call stony but high sense of self regard. It is rather common in them because they were traditionally a bread-winner. I noe sometimes it can be very exasperatin' dealing with people with too much self-regard. Toward certain large extent these people need to learn to be a lil bit more sensitive of teir sorrounding. I really don't blame them cuz it has been something that embedded in them eversince jurassic day I guess. Above of all, what I think we can do is, show some respect if they prefer silence. Sometimes its their sober moment or anything. Just let them be, and I'm not freaking out if the guy that I love not to be like what I wanted them to be. Afterall, I can't expect them to do things beyond their will knowing that they also bare certain things bout me. Just a note to everyone, think about what you have, what have you done and think how people bare with you. If you see things start to be unequal then maybe you cn make your move. Just an opinion for me, we can never change the world to be flat just be in it and mk use of every moment we have. Same goes with your love one. I only have one Chucky the blur, the annoying, the cheerful , he's too far to be reach but I learn to learn certain things. :)

Appreciation Dinner

Appreciation Dinner @ G-Tower Rooftop Bar & Tanzini French Restaurant :)

Awesome foods & cool scene!.................................

The committe snap2 with our CEO, Dep CEO, HR Director, Finance Director, Senior Managers and Execs

A Night In Bolly..ROFL

ROFL, anyway, here 2 photos for my company Gala Dinner. Crazy Bollywood Night I can say.

I'm too embarassed to do this !!!Seriously I will never do this Bolly thingy ever again. Next time I suggest stick to Musical. I can simply wear dress and behaving decent :)

Today Was A Fairytale

Greetings ! I know writing is now landed as my least thing to do. Despite of having micro time in life spent for my own self I'm no longer a person who can run here and there picking up fun. The phase of adulthood bites my tickling clock badly that I can't even consume a jazzed songwords anymore. So on 20th October I took a flight back to Kuching and even a day before my soul partially arrived at my lovely town. I really miss the place damn much. Too much memories and too much things that I've learnt. I met my girls :) who happened to gather earlier than me. It was all about excitement. Couldnt believe my student life is over yeah its really over. Sad to think about it but we only have life once so I'm gonna use it to the fullest. Great luck I sent off all my fella friends. We did so much great things back there and I knew it will never dimn in my lil frontal lobe. However, we've got more blank paper ahead!!

Having your both feet standing on that stage holding scroll, surely burst your tears, whether its the unseen cry or physical, it surely happen deep down in our heart. It wasn't glorious but there was a sense of satisfaction. "I did it"..I'm just glad I'm there and letting my parents seeing me with tears of mirth. :)

I'm now an HR executive, not a surgeon, pharmacist, lawyer or engineer. I knew I skidded away from my real dream but being HR make me feel comfortable. Though I'm a workoholic (i know) but I know this is something that I wanna do. Cheers everyone, happy graduating !

Challenged for challenge

I heard that if a cobbler try to teach a pumbler how to fix broken pipes, they gonna have the entire house flooded with water. Anywhere around the world it happened! A scientist teaching how to fish, a taylor fixing a broken knee..Initially I'm glad to help but when people challenge my core, (shaking head) its seriously disastrous. How do you define a people where his/her knowledge is nowhere to be challenged and we give them a chunky respect. I was stupid enough if I were to challenge them (like I have too much time for it..pfffftt). As usual I really hate when ppl challenge me..Compared to her probably she has 1% knowledge bout Kuching. Whats makin' me furious was that, she said she need to understand Kuching. I get it, go on..I did asked which angle she's lookin' into. (I thought I could have some direction)..Should I laugh hard or rolling on the floor like hell?? She didn't give me direction but she expect she can get what she wants. Madam, be clear on your direction, how do you direct with somekind of direction. (Lame)...I can spill anything I know but wouldn't it be nice if I know what am I suppose to say (as in filtered information). I cannot teach someone whose already ahead. I was taught to respect people with their expertise. (So I did)...

Too much Question

Sometimes when we think too much our head gonna blow with scattered alphabet. Skipping thing isn't a good thing either though it can make you away from it just a second. How does it happened, when you grow up very well but eventually something came out of nowhere screwing your planned change. How does it happened, when you're trying play safe suddenly things went out of control and all your childhood seemed fake. Sometimes people are too keen to perfection but a lil perfection doesn't bite do they? These are the perfect nightmares in some people's life. Technically its awful but it teach you the definition of being stronger. Shallow life doesn't give you scars but when deep life give you too much? (does idiom makes things worst?) However, no matter how much scar life had given you, it always gonna be a karma in your life. Have you ever been in a state of waking up jazzed with consternation? or you can't even sleep because you've been thinking deep and your head hurts. What does family means to you? Why does an angel turn to be a black sheep? How is that , when you noe everything but you have no voice to speak out? Do we really have to trust our relatives? How do you know when people sincere to you? Does dissapointment giving you an alarm?Too much question too lil answer.